BeL 175

why i,m getting more dumb,not realizing its getting more and more unreal.

2011-11-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

person who keep believing for a change and commitment but getting more n more insecure..first its amazing..cnt even describe those feeling..no wonder there would exist step in relationship.i never believe and keeping my faith..never know it hurt more than what i expected.cnt breathe cnt think of anything..i hate those feeling i m afraid of that feeling..i thought i could keep it..but from the start i knew it was too damn good to last..until i felt it unreal..so i m expecting the same feeling..but i m getting the heart that is weak..i think i need to find back the strong me..the one who hold still her dignity..i m losing myself..i dont care i promise anything if i felt something wrong i will walk away like i always do..i m letting myself hurt anymore..i m not crying n worrying anymore..for you..not worth....and now spending time travelling..i learn i could learn without you..i observe what a girl really deserve..with or without you..its my life!..

my 2011 life

2011-11-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

hey guysss~wow its been a long time i didnt upload any stories of mine.hmm what can i say? i have been busy with my upcoming spm~ahhh~i m so damn afraid i could do well~hmmx..hope i will get the result that i wanted~forget abt this~right now i m doing the craziest thing in the world..that is having holiday before my spm start~not just that but i went to somewhere that i seriously cnt focus~ahhh i just have to forget it and take a rest maybe it could help me abt it~who knows~this is a year where i m kinda confused abt my feeling too~so complicated~hmmmx~i m just gonna ignore it~maybe that could help~well i got ntg much to say also~hope i will do what best for me ;)

2011-02-11T18:41:00.000-08:00

hey hey guys~i m back~=)
miss me and my story?
well thereisnt much things but this special little happened just occupiy all the space for me being happy that's meeting someone so special in my life
wondering who?
i m not gonna tell
well if that someone looking this
i think you know who u r..
=)
having u in my life in the end december of 2010 really make me realize there;s still someone who make smile again so bright =)
but in this new year 2011
i m gonna accomplish a task
from changing the arrogant isabel to someone who understand and react maturely on the right situation
i m gonna be someone different that will shine out and be the spotlight in everyone eyes
i m gonaa take everything to be success
i know it will take a ling time but i m not afraid of the hard work
cz i will make it thru i m not gonna be the little girl people can look down
especially to some people out there who give me the expression on their face
you know what it really does affect me in my life but this is the only thing which remind to work hard to show you guys what im really made of
i m indenpent and i will always be
the more negative you thought of me will give me the strength to turn you down~!
2011!JIAYOU!=)

still the same~

2010-12-09T16:19:00.000-08:00

the same feeling haunt me back again~
like the same old pain~
when you needed someone to talk to
when you approaching complicated stuff
there's not a thing you can even do~
but just acting strong and make it thru the night alone~
but the heartache can seriously make you cnt breathe at all
wanted to sleep and forget it all like what you can do
maybe this stupid heart is still soft..
never learn the lesson taught
TIAN ZHEN de me..
why will i ready to give it 100%..
when there's always something to stop your life being smooth
Still grabbing the blanket so tightly hardly breathe normally
i dont want to cry cz i know if i do i know i will let it go all..
all the tiredness and sad memory corrupt in one night
have you ever taste this feeling?
back home everyone doing their stuff doesnt even notice your presence at home
everyday i fight for my future or something
a thousand more words i need to choose
i will be alright cz i need to be brave and go over the limit which stop this life of mine to be happy
if i give up i lose to you that's faith~i dont believe there's not a single moment i can be success.
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what my bro really wan me decide

2010-12-05T20:45:00.001-08:00

My bro came back~yeah~how nice it feel when there's someone home i can talk too~but he is going back again and start working at brunei~=( it's upset when you got back late from work looking around your home there's only your pet welcoming you shaking it tail and accompany you thru your night~i wish it was like before me and my parent having fun together.i missed the time we r together in brunei~when i have no doubt living life like a child..but i m still growing up..'sigh'..it was nice that my bro would ask why i m kinda blur when i got home cz i didnt realize he was home till he say tmr bring me out~>.< omg..my mind is blank..then suddenly he ask what wrong with me..i was like..he tell me just say it..i answer i m afraid i will cry very badly if i pour it all out..so i didnt talk much just went to my room and listen to some song..
then he asked me..if in this world there's nothing stop you~what you wanna become..
i told him i wanna study well and get a a good job and live my life..he ask me where is the isabel who wanted to go for entertainment road saying wanted to be famous and everything..i think again..oh the dream i hide long time ago..i 'sigh'..then he told me..if i really wanted something i shouldnt give up and told me next year bring me to brunei and try to chase my dream and his friends will help me on it..but the first thing i need to change was my thought..so i can continue finished all my path..i think and think....maybe it times to achieve what i really want..

Not me~

2010-12-05T15:27:00.000-08:00

recently finding myself struggling to be doing what i m doing now~it was ok in the beginning but slowly i found myself in no where..just making myself tired and breathless to be thinking what i m not suppose to..but the more i continue being like this..i m suffocating~i keep telling myself there's nothing you cant pass through just keep remind myself what awaiting in the finish point..but i really have no more energy to fight what keep on stop me and make me feel more bad inside..just like how i have imagined it to be..but it just felt like a glass you hold so high wishing everybody could see it just fall so hard on the floor..wishing to cry so badly but keep on holding it..while doing what i m doing..i keep on holding my faith to make it the best..i have pass through so many experience when i m doing so much but get nothing in the end..so i dont see myself cant pass through this..
Living in 2010 i found myself have changed to someone who doesnt want to trust anyone anymore..
But still acting strong go on like nothing ever hurt me...
it funny how i see myself with tears
but i m trying very hard to smile back like how i suppose to..
by myself..
i need to learn not relying on others
i just wanna be the girl who is truly holding strong for what she have..
friends and family <3
i will just keep what i m feeling a side till i found someone i could really trust with all my heart
when that times come
it time for me to bring a commitment in a relationship
and what ever happen i will hold it to the end..
i dont want to make it like what i have done before..
last but not least i will smile truly with my heart again..
i will be happy =)
i have faith in myself <3

My way~

2010-11-22T18:30:00.000-08:00

DON'T you realize everything over~aint i look serious for what i said?
i already forget you~and i have no more feeling for you~
if you keep treating me this way i will feel disgusted by you
my life already pretty fucked up and i thought you will able to makeit better
i was wrong~
I just hope you dont keep coming in my life and ruin everything~
i m happy now~i really am~
i dont need you to make me smile again~
do what you suppose to~not coming here and make me feel like there's a chance again~
cz there's isn't~

shouldn't be me~

2010-10-29T07:27:00.001-07:00

shouldn't be active in anything shouldn't have come Miri~
should know i will get hurt
should know i shouldn't believe
should have know dont start this life at all~
felt so hurt no one could see through me with my life
i m tired i really am.. the only wish now is just lay down and everything back to normal
where i can still smile again
Noone can feel what i feel now..
Upset like how i use to be
shoulder to cry on is what i need now
but i m crying on my pillow
i wanted to shout
i just wish my life never contained you all
it's pretty fucked up life i m in
growing is not fun at all
not wishing to hate but it's so unfair!
i m tired already!
can the world let me rest for awhile atleast?!

exam coming~

2010-10-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

here we come again~stuff a student hate to face~EXAM!gosh i wsh there's no exam for being a student~but it will be bad too lols~i never been studying like this before so it doesn't feel like me aint it?what to do~the first step to success is to study and strike for the best then to the future life~gotta get my head straight and plan my life now i guess~TIME to be matured!no more childish stuff no more react with emotional thought and move forward like a indepedent WOMAN~wow~sound old..haha i wanna change my life to be better now..i dont care what others have to think abt me because you never know me you will never understand me and my life because i do what right and i m not afraid to confront for it.but there's always mistake and we learned and we experienced so you gotta give ppl breaks and stop insulting them for one small mistake~
Living in my life really have make tough and strong mentally because i kept telling myself there's nothing you CAN'T do~You just need to try and NEVER GIVE UP!when you try there's more benefit than you dont~and NEVER SAY NEVER!
peace out ppl! take care!
^^

what a life~2010..

2010-10-01T03:52:00.000-07:00

wow~i really kinda stress out for this year a lot~you cant even count how many times i cried how much i m hurt in this year~very tired of my life~haisss but i still faced up and move forward my life~things between my friends and family barely make me cnt breathe anymore~even studies~i do hope one..only one person could really understand me and care for me~hold me tightly and gave me strength to be strong for everything~but this year is really a hectic year for me~misunderstood and criticize words i have to hear~for ppl point of view of me..i m strong i m independent..but truly i m still weak n need someone listen to me when i m hurt..even a friend..or someone closed to me..but i just have to kept quiet and take everything alone~..going bk my cousin home..put down my bag~noone to talk to..kept on thinking what will happened next..what am i gonna to do..i m really helpless..and i just realize i stand alone for my life..noone really could understand what i m going through..i just have to be happy for the moment i m in..not internally...i tell myself..this is your life..you have to be alone that how everything will be cause i know noone knows better than yourself...but things just dont go well as i want..you can call me stupid stubborn idiot or what so ever..cause i really am~i think for ppl friends everyone alot~but always forget i have a life to live..mind ppl stuff alot just to see them smile n be happy..but after sitting alone..i closed my eyes..where are you now?what are you doing?...are you happy?...i was thinking to revenge on everything how sometimes treat me..but my heart just cnt be that cruel..pathetic!!...i just wish to see ppl who treat me bad suffer more than what i feel..but why i cnt just do it...i have thought of making them feel bad..my mind just strike..this isnt you bel...this is not what you do for your life..i just forget and forgives..i still help i still care no matter what you did..what happened in school last tuesday..the bruises on my body really make me felt stupid...being so emotional and angry never thought of my life just climb up the building and to the roof just to take my things..dont care how ppl thinks..i was too angry to see ppl making fun of my things..i wanna show you i m a girl that is out of your expectation..i m stronger when i m treated this way..so never ever looked down on me..maybe u think its fun..its nice..well i tell you now..i m serious for certain stuff so dont trigger the alarm that within me..cz might burst no matter when..but thinking back..i m just too tired to be thinking so much..i just left it alone...cz i seem to see my life..just me facing everything alone..crying alone..being independent..even when i cry i went to look at the mirror..the tears kept on flowing..my face getting hot..asking is that me...why am i crying instead of smiling like how i used to be..and wipe off the tears and calm myself ..its tough to stand alone..if you know how it felt..barely can breathe..barely can think properly..but i need to stand on the line and be brave n move on..no matter how life crush you...you still will see the sun shine on you..everyday..i still smile but its just for that moment...i seriously wanna scream out loud how the world treating me..keep stressing me up..i ord gave up a lot of what i wanted..what more you want?what more can i stand..i m ord blank thinking how to treat a friend...i m sorry for what i did i know i shouldnt cz i really dont know..i just wish to help..wish to care..wish to see ppl happy..i just will say i dont wanna be bad..i will stay who i am..isabel..the fun..friendly girl you know..not hurting anyone..i will be stronger mentally!;)

i m back~;D i m isabel law yu wen!the girl who let the picture of hers smiling in your memory =)

2010-07-17T22:24:00.001-07:00

Wow~what to say i m living life a lot different now~cz the hurt i learnt from the past really have make me afraid to be in one again~the sun still shine for me~the rain still crys for me~the world still turn round and round and i m still smiling brightly~^^ i just cnt stand to be sad all the times~life is simple~just makes the others happy and smile like they never have~well sometimes i do hurt ppl accidentally but i still hope you could understand~you know i m capable being the strong girl^^ i do need shoulder to lend to~cause i m still a soft girl~i do cry for something useful~^^ but i wouldnt cry for ntg tho~i spend a day thinking my life while listening my blog song~it really make me realize i really have done wrong~i m so sorry~well i m gonna be the girl you said she is matured~i will really show and tell u i will think positive now and then`i promised~i m will be happy and go for the right side~i m like other girl who fell for the love things that everyone perfectly wants~teenage life~what a mistake we all do~cause i was given the chance to love but i took it for granted~i get my punishment already~cause now my heart cnt response for anyone~who will make me fall in love again~by then i thought there's no forever but i will believe till the day you come~no matter who u r~;) i can breathe slowly now~from the stress i got~finally i can walk away~^^ so now i know what this really mean~forget someone you ever loved is like remembering someone you never knew~it's hard~
well i m still growing strong~i see my future could be great~so let make it happened~i m happy to have my friends and family who keep cheering me up when i made mistake~^^this is the girl you talking about now!i m gonna success my life!=)you will only see my smile and hear the laughter of me ;D

haisss cn i dont turn 16?

2010-05-14T15:52:00.000-07:00

>.< bday coming~usual on my exam!damn it~haisss =( wow cnt believe my 15 years old life have been so happy~=) thank you~i appreciate everything you said n do~i will rmb it~living till now i found myself moving forward with my head held high to keep go on happily with all the support my family gave n of course friends~
i wanna learn to be grateful having everything i ever have~cz i wanna cherish while i have~let see my sweet 16 will turn out how babe!=D hahaha~
EXAM over i m going to work with my friend maybe~promoter~XD lols~
i never work before i m so excited!XD spending time with friends working n talking n having fun~XD lols cnt wait lerh!XD

wooooshhhh~!hip hop time ;D

2010-03-06T07:14:00.000-08:00

baby baby baby ohhhhh baby baby noooo~hahaha love the song!=D make me feeling to dance whole day with my feet jumping crossing my leg~well if u dont get what i meant..listen to the song i put in my blog the first song^^...its a nice song where u no feel emo but feeling catchy for the beat n lyrics~talking abt love song..well eventho i gave the singer a nickname i guess~that is first love prince that mean singing out the feeling out for the first love u got~check him out~JUSTIN BIEBER~not that i soooo in love with him just he is not bad for someone younger than me~wahaha expressing that i m very old like that~XD..
NEVER FELT SO FREE AND HAPPY THAN BEFORE~
cz i can finally be stress less for a day?
how lovely~
the continuos day will be freaking tiring~
back to normal mode that is BUSY MODE
damn~wonder after march will i be free like a bird~
nahhh dont think so..
cz my aunt is asking me tuition for his son at my house for saturday n sunday
his son miss playing with me n my dog ==
in another way i m a babysitter for a primary 4 kid yeah?
lols
hahaha~
let learn to be a part time teacher then =S
i m guessing it will pretty hectic..and ridiculous?
never know if we never try~
hmmm..i dunno y i m pretty happy everyday this a day~
way damn too happy~
>.<
maybe sot liao...XD
and i m here to advertise my cousin pictures where he took in my old kampung i show some here hope ya like it~
and support him~
he is selling camera^^ very unique camera
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click here http://www.facebook.com/search/?q=L.M+WE+RE&init=quick#!/profile.php?id=100000476734664
OR
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^^
he have amazing camera!do consider to buy!^^you wouldnt be regret!=)
have fun taking pics!
Why do we take photographs? Do we take them for other people to admire our skills? Do we take them as a record, document or as a trophy? Do we create them to advertise to our friends that we are having a beautiful, successful, and enviable life?

We create images for ourselves, we appreciate what is around us and this act helps us to express ourselves. It doesn't really matter if no one gets it as long as it was a meaningful exercise to us. We enjoy the process rather than the outcome. When someone appreciates our photographs, it is indeed rewarding. Someone else understands us, someone else gets it too.

Lomography is about being in the moment, having fun while taking good pictures & capturing it with your favourite Lomographic tool – producing effects like light leaks, vignette framing and deep saturated colours!
that is what he is trying to get to know more abt photography!=)

my dream..my hope..my everything

2010-03-02T19:20:00.000-08:00

living for this 16 years really have made me grown to understand people around me..to study everything they thinking..everything they feeling..just by reflecting it bk to me..feeling pain,sad,hurt,happy,confused,anger,love..but when i really gonna live my life to stop care for them but myself..i just cnt be that selfish just doing everything the way i want..being cruel sometime but i still cnt..saying to myself ur heart is soft and u would get hurt easily get cared easily..ppl saying u think to straight u dont know theres something gonna hurt u but u just dont care..cz to u.. life is just being happy..then it make myself thinking or saying something funny n stupid.. getting everyone to laugh..when getting serious or angry theres no sign on my face..cz to everyone i m always the cheerful funny freaky girl that strike your mind doing something incredible..but no anger..eventho i do have angry feeling but it never last long..i cnt hate ppl for long time.. i cnt rmb the pain the hate cz i get tired of it and just let it slip away..but rmb in relationship..ur loves one never angry u..they r only upset..cz they never have the heart to hate or angry u..that what i learn now and understand...love?it doesnt really matter to me anymore..cz its foolish..cz we never need that cz we hvnt learn to love..why theres sadness when u broke up..the only reason is lonely..being alone is scary..but when u learn to get out from that..that is the time u have grown..u learned being strong not by relying on others..but i will never stop at the time to care..i will always care..that what i need to do i guess for now =)..

yesh!i did it!=)

2010-02-27T23:30:00.000-08:00

hard hard week for me!!!i have so much to stress!my test!my dance routine!my band singing!my group singing!my cheerleading!...awh!!! but i know i can do it!i have the strong determination to knock down everything which block my way to aim the best!=)..by every support ppl gave me!i will make it!THINK POSITIVE!=)..
this few day i went to the place which caught my memories..but then i suddenly smile..and look at the place around..i realize theres ntg to think o cherish anymore..cz i cnt feel anything anymore..and i m glad..cz i m not suffering anymore..
one more shocking thing..someone in brunei is keeping contact with me and is the one who keep miss call me m=S sorry for the words i say before =p hoep ya dont mind =D.. i m shock~and add me bk in fb..i dont know why i felt weird to see his profile saying everything..maybe thinking too much..haha~
omg!back to my school stuff!
i m super confused for all the thing and everyone around me!
sometime when we are far too good and we get the fault by ourself!what a pathetic feeling!
not to forget my sejarah teacher!bhalvinder!lols!i dunno whether i can write out the essay or not!=S...
my math!?dont need to say..omg...dunnno how...
evrything come together make me bz..good thing is i dont have to think those useless thing!lovely aint it?...
hope i can to my best
caring my fren n someone
my studies
my school concert
my family
felt like i have so much emotion when facing this
but luckily i didnt go crazy but keep ugrading to be the one that is who i am
just me~i dont fall but i keep getting better!=)
just give me time and opportunities
i will make it to the best!=)
love ya!=)

memory land~

2010-02-19T18:42:00.001-08:00

teehee..this is the pics taken at parkson with my beloved beautiful cousins~!..we have fun..but we took this pic very fast cz i need to head bk home early...going to my other cousin bf house open house..huhu..was a tiring day and quite fed up day maybe..hahaha well enjoy!

=(

2010-02-17T17:36:00.000-08:00

omg omg omg...what should i do once i step in this..i m really a pathetic!!!!!i just dont wanna care anymore le..you want to do what just do..i really OMG....damn damn..lets be in a relationship that is invisible which i will making it to be!so i wouldnt be hurt maybe?...friends friends all i need is friends!!!!i m no one properties..
seriously i go knock down the wall enough..==....
and stop miss call me..u eng dao ntg to do de person!once i get angry i spread ur freaking number!TRY ME! and seriously nowadays really happy..sad... angry.... like campur till yao sot liao!pms arh...
well..
lastly i wanted to say is
enjoy life..
trust me..its short..
dont let the chance u want slip off

tataxx~
love
bel..

what life for~

2010-02-14T16:15:00.000-08:00

i think i got my answer for whole day wondering the answer...guess it really over..

2010-02-07T21:57:00.000-08:00

i m having quite a boring day wondering abt the answer i should gave..told my frens..everyone say dont..no..i was thinking yeah..maybe its really over..what done is done..noone can help..noone can cure..eventho i still have the feeling to feel the memories back then..but i think i should move on to the new one..the one i will be happier..and for the one who told me to think abt it..sorry i dont think so to get it back again..theres no sign that i should..theres nothing to even let me walk toward that life again..so its totally different from what u said..noone want the memories again.i just wanna love the one who care me now and get rid of my past life..
maybe its stupid to tell someone..u know who u r.i can sure u now..noone wants the past life anymore..
hope u understand..

what to do..oshhhh..

2010-02-06T15:51:00.000-08:00

is it true?..when the time u put down for the hurt u been through is when u realize u have fallen a bit for someone..=S i m so confused..but i keep holding it back to not fall so easily..woooshh..idiotic me..just waste my time planning my concert and my study..but something just like to pull me away to something...what to do what to do..
i will focus focus focus!!!well that the way isabel do it~hope so...huhux..
time is chasing me..i hope i can do my best in concert rehearsal!HAISSS....
my song..my dance..i just wish some idea strike me immediately..XD
well wish DX street keep on doing the best!BECAUSE WE R THE EXTREME!=) jiayou!

i wish it never happen...never meet you..

2010-02-02T01:18:00.000-08:00

to hear u have change to a person i never know make me more confused what kind of person u r..as we all know living in this world is for ourself..some of us did the first step..but the rest just keep falling..as if nothing matter to us..maybe still havnt grow up?..why we have to be like this..all before u said..u fail to do to it..saying i wont care..yeap i dont..cz i dont even wanted to ask why..?..maybe u r noone to me anymore?i think maybe..to the one who always there to care for me maybe he is far far away from me now..but he still care to ask how am i and get how am i doing from my bro..when i said that we never can be together anymore...i think back maybe i really felt sorry to u..but happy to see and hear that u still there to change urself better and listen what i said..and in the future i will be there and greet u as a fren..and say sorry for being childish..when u r asked where the girl u love?.letting u hurt alone..it my fault..relationship that is far really have make me feel something is lost..and i will keep the picture..till i meet u again..if u r seeing this..i hope and wish there's a chance being a friend..=)..i miss the care..thanx 288~=)for teaching to be matured in everything for my life =)

i love the one who lost something but still keep upgrade themself and rmb what is taught..
i learn to love and care and of course help..who need it..
losing u have made me learn..
next tyme i meet someone i love..rmb to say everything that on your mind
always be true..
say what on ur mind and heart
letting u go is something good and bad..
but this will always be past tense i use in my life
my future tense will start when the moment
i closed everything abt u
and something u dunno is..
i believe u..
but then there's nothing to hold it strong..
everything will be fine~

cnt blog too much liao!T.T

2010-01-29T04:58:00.000-08:00

huhu~guys sorry cnt upload my blog a lot..cz i m bz for dancing..singing...and studying!haisss..today is sooo sucky!but i m really grateful that my fren respect my choice and understand~XD thank u!!my leg...can split niaw!..i making it softly and lovely!gonna make my dance like that too!=)hehe!jia you jia you DX STREET!THE EXTREME!ntg is impossible!my singing..well say that i use too much emotional feeling in it..happy to say i m using the feeling but sad my heart ache..tears abt to fall...but i still stand strong..cz i dont need anyone when i fall..i need myself..to pull everything thru..that the meaning when we are saying we r not weak...but strong..learn to be independent..eventho i can choose the life having someone beside me..bu i choose not to...but when i fail...i dont let myself down..but continue cheer myself up and do my best..life getting tougher..but it making me to understand life is unfair but change the thinking that it will always be ok..my smile vanished only when i m not in this world..
gonna be strong...gonna be me..
gonna be true..
life?
isnt a hard thing..
just choose the way u want
love
bel<3

whuuu=)

2010-01-25T03:45:00.000-08:00

wow~what a day which pass by just like wind~haha..quite boring when one of my bro is not in our class anymore..sad~huhu but i wish him all the best!=)...today i study math i went infront!noob xia de lo~wakaka..then when science..i fadai..keep thinking what should i decide..huhu XD...after morning class end..i went to dance room and check our song and arrange it..uhhhh tired...then we get the permission and went bk to dance room and continue our dance..and later!as i promise my friend to teach the dance for a group of singer i did it~=D so happy!i surprised when they all say thank u to me..teehee~feel like i m accomplishing something and helping ppl~^^...but also maybe today wasnt a day for me i guess...someone who dig out my past is super duper ishhhh!i can now tell u...how u much u say o do..i will not feel anything anymore...cz i m offcially over it!!i m not blind and i m not stupid...jus maybe i m not matured to think abt the consequences~yeah silly me~
well that all for the day!
take care my frenx!
and joyce stay happy!
anything i will be at ur side!
=)
that what fren do!

friendship

2010-01-23T08:19:00.000-08:00

i finally find out what friendship really is..
when someone always ther support u
always there to say u still got us
that is when i even realize how hard the pressure is on me
how much stress and pain inside me
is all gone..and they gave u a strong will to move on
and be happy~
that is when i realize
there someone true..
that is ur true friend..
they dont leave u when sad
they dont use u
they dont hide things behind u but tell u..when u r wrong..
and u willing to listen and change to become a better person
i m touched when i find problem..and i get fed up
THEY are de one who held ur hand and get up..
but i dont cry for the problem..i cry how lucky am i to have them
how grateful i found them
how precious every word they give u
how helpful they can be
friend are the ppl u walk with when u are out to the society
every step they guide u..
i dunno how to thank them.
but what i know..
it only kill me to hurt them..
cz i dont only treat them as friend..but family which we rely on
i wanted to say this to all my fren
u the best thing i found in my life
u give me courage to pass thru my problem and sadness
that is y..
sometime we failed but we smile again..and look forward and we learn..
friends never gave u up..
never...=)

WHEEE i get to go out!XD

2010-01-23T02:02:00.000-08:00

i have fun celebrating farewell for justin n happy bday for esmond!haha...
nice XD so funny again~huhu we take a lot of pics!and with of course justin cousin..named angie!haha~pretty girl!XD we went to pizza hut and eat...i m freaking full..eating one piece of pizza and one unfinished chicken wing and two big freaking cake which someone gave me...wan to puke out liao!hiusssh!=( and we make the cake so cute!XD LOLS...and i meet a new fren call bryan chin from riam~i so diam when go there..then they make talk liao!well i do take some of MY pics..haha dont say so much i show u!=)lee kim sam!got put liao..haha~dont complaint..XD

simple day~

2010-01-21T23:48:00.000-08:00

when today morning i was on the way to school...i saw something..that make my heart stop beating..haisss...y my memory flash back...is it true this only stop when u found someone true for u?why so suffering de!haiyo...still larh trying my best to smile n be happy! today someone bday lurh..next to my class de...my fren n theirs help celebrate..xia soi him at canteen..haha!fun~see everyone so happy...everyone in canteen cheer for that bday boy..wakaka...and gave him a card full of wishes and hopes..^^ i wrote too =)..then i went up..bought cup mee so i can eat in class..because i got chinese lesson and i dont have any of that..so i eat half way..someone send up a piece a cake that i say save for me worh..i tot no more liao..haha..so happy...chocolate cake!make me hyper liao!XD...sometime
i really very confused some kind off ppl...dunno what they want from me..
i noe they backstab me but y still want be fren of mine..=S
weird..and care even i did o not to greet them...funny...and i heard all my frens tell me what u bkstab abt it before..y u can act like ntg..when i dig it all out..pls dont be speechless...
take carex..
love ya!=)

omg what a day!~

2010-01-21T04:44:00.000-08:00

today like i separate my body so damn tired man!huhuT.T i think need put down for the basketball le la~wakao~then run to hall learn cheer leading...so tired eh~i got injury le..my hand~damn i put plaster then continue training lerh~=D fun narh~
i think i have slowly get use to this life~
XD
finally~
i getting something from being strong!
hope it work well till i found something that true
anything i just wish there someone true..
LORD guide my way to a better life~
love ya guys!=)u see this pic...that is how no game no pain..got game jiu se jiang lorh!

ehhhh~today ooo~

2010-01-19T23:13:00.000-08:00

hiushhhh!today orh...eh...dont say la keep as secret!wakakaka...something special happened...!XD AND I HAVE FUN LA...and kinda sad to see joyce sad today...she write a short letter to me and say she very sad n no mood...then chinese lesson start..i went to sit with her and comfort her..when i say dont think abt it le..she started crying..cz that guy with him de really is jerk!kns!see him slap him!=( no use!haisss...so sorry for her...then i told her be strong..not fair u sad he is not..and with other girl so happy..dont look down on herself..i know its hard...even tho still like how i am now..keep try and try dont give up!and sure..u will put down and see someone really special for ur life..she keep cry make me wanted to cry too..jacky keep turn his head to see my eyes..they jio me!huhu T.T its sad la come on..
haisss....but JOYCE!do be happy yeah!enjoy every second of ur day k?when night come i noe u will be afraid like losing everything..but still always be happy o!=) i support u always!active girl always there help u jiayou!i dont left out ppl when they are in need!gambateh neh!
HUHU!...in the last period so geng eh!
i eat keropok...i eat eat eat..gary jio me..
eat so innocent de~
== u this bro ye se hen lihai n steady lo
noe my expression hen funny la!
zzzzz!
wish someone brighten up my life now
hiushhh...as i m trying to brighten up everyone life!!!
stay smiling!!!!XDDDD!
LOVE YA!take care!

wondering and wondering

2010-01-19T00:24:00.000-08:00

dunno wan start new journey o staying all by myself ma..hiushhh..i think better to start a new one?...am i ready...?...yes i think so no dont..anei...today ntg to do fadai dao this qu..
well follow what my heart say bah
like everyone say
if that will make me happy..
right?support o not?
sot liao
but i think understand more first na..
right now is like running marathon..
get ready sienx...
take time run!
XD
funny de explanation!XD
to all my true friends!
wish u all good luck!
and always happy!=)
cnt laugh?
just see me laugh u will oso laugh liao!
hahahah!

everyone look like dying..==

2010-01-18T23:35:00.000-08:00

walao...today was super hyper de!!cz i ate dao chocolate..!!wakaka..nice eh..SMARTIES!become smart niaw!hahaha~stupid...thnx lean han!..oso very tired na playing THE SO CALL NETBALL when pjk lesson..they all laughing when i try to block someone tall!cz i keep jumping!like....aiya..dont say niaw..kena jio later huhu..then i went to cimb bank..my bro need do something for his thing..and i saw beggar..so many thing n feeling strike me..i think n think.and i ask...why we always compare ppl that are greater than us?why dont compare who are not as lucky as we r?..y we never learn being grateful...so much hatred so much jealousy turning ourself like monster..i m laughing at myself y i need to care abt what some ppl say abt me..they never live my life they never noe..but they always have the right to say something at ur back..so why being soft heart...as we learn helping others no need to show off whateva..its doesnt meant a thing..i try to help anyone in need if i can..but what i get is a bad method they treating u..i ask myself..y feel sorry?..u done ntg wrong..and they never know what really going on ur life..and i realized to put thing easy..so what i care?..i respect but they dont give a damn..
so i do what right..as long it is true for anyone..
so i went to the beggar and left some money in his box and i left..
i say to myself..i m grateful...and i dont want anyone i love end up like that
left out in the dark and lonely side of the world..
its never fair..dont say it stupid..cz what i done i will feel happy abt it
but to those who dislike me..
let me tell u..
when u doing such thing to some ppl o wat
think and feel what situation they r in
dont judge if u never know well..or by hearing something has no proof in ur eyes..
pls treat ppl fairly..
as ppl are never perfect..

what the heck with my life seriously!!

2010-01-18T02:26:00.000-08:00

haisss...actually today was my funniest day n happiest day ever!and it turn out suck!=( after hearing all that is like something pierce thru my heart..i never thought it was this hurting!!!why?..normally ppl get scolded o beaten up they cry..why?..i m not like that de!but why i cry..?and guys this is not abt my relatioship..dont misunderstood..haisss....i never cry infront of my friends..cz i wanted to be the girl who always smile n laugh everytime and carries no worries for them..and what i do?i kept put down my head and cry..but i m touch..there frens who comfort me..and half way i m crying i laughed...cz they r seriously funny..i go toilet and washed my face...kinda getting fed up of this life..ppl i love past away..and this...
shit!=@
NO MORE NEXT TYME LIAO!
damn it!

go bowling with my bro~

2010-01-17T04:56:00.000-08:00

>
wakaka today i went to parkson n play bowling with my bro..we wore white colour shirt like couple== my gosh..haha!then i was uncomfortable a bit dunno why..everyone was like looking at me..and i look on my shirt got dirty ha..then i walk very very fast..my bro complaint..hahaha!i wore this shirt!i grow fat ma?look look!=) teehee
i dunno i got o not..but i think from this pic like got!XD

i deleted you in everything..done story!

2010-01-16T18:55:00.000-08:00

kinda heart broken to see that word u have said..but i wish u say more so i will forget u and wash u away easily just like a blink of an eye..when that time come..even i meet u..i will treat u as a stranger..just pass by like i never knew you..and smile just like what i do to everyone..you are out of my life list..
thought i should even pity u or care abt u?
waste of time
now i dont even give a damn for anything happened to you
my life just begin when this story end
even i learn..
if someone would meant to be with me
he should understand
and care

i m not afraid to say i still care
but now
totally like i never know you
cz
we never meet
that what will my memory say
stranger..
wonder can i even do that
well
this is when i say
this is isabel way
and she never hold back for anything
i m something that is beyond ur expectation
so what u doing now dont stop
what u hurt the most
i can put down more easily
and move on to a perfect match..
=)

huhu~kinda tired day le today~

2010-01-16T00:42:00.000-08:00

today saturday still need go school eh..replacing chinese new year holiday..hao kiamsiap worh..haha~eventho chinese new year i celebrate at a secret place..wakaka..today was tired dunno why..i reach skol i go buy LIANG CHA..stupid right?cold still drink liang de thing..wakaka..i bought two one for yun yin..but she went for prefect camp..then today lesson was boring..we all there talk when after form 5 do what..i want to take lawyer.hehe..or hotel management^^ i like wear smart smart de =)..wuisshhh..then i slp in science period after doing all the notes..
then i went for training for cheerleading..wasnt in the mood for training cz kena misunderstood i wear contact lens eh!the two little girl in my cheerleading de keep look at my eye like what..then i say i dont wear..they say got..y will reflect de and shiny de.then i moved my eye fast fast let them see..nah mei you lar!.==" then gary told them i dont wear la.aduh....before that i went to pete deli eat..wakaka eat liao..BERAT le...FUNNY LE...and i have fun..too many activities liao lu..maybe want start band for singing in concert..and i confused choosing song for my solo..
then my bro back le..he saw me dancing..then we walk out..cz my hand wrote a i love u sign...i told him i write de he dont believe..wakaka...he say dont do stupid thing and rub my head..==
my perfect day!
=)

i m sorry~hmm>.<

2010-01-15T00:16:00.001-08:00

i hope u can stop treating me too good..because how hard u try i still dont know how to accept..i m sorry..i forget how to love someone ord..i lost hope in there..cz the feeling is painful..so scared to experience it again..till i get my feeling back i hope that is when forever is true for me^^..so i m having a life alone..its lonely but with friends its always colourful^^..so i have always treat u as a very good friend^^
i just end a story of mine..i dont wish to start a new one..=) hope u would understand..cz friendship hold longer than a relationship that is unstable..
understand more..know more abt who i m and who u r..the road we walk will be longer =)
stay friendssss~
=)
to someone u know =)

pls dont so boring pls~

2010-01-14T23:55:00.000-08:00

if anything dont like abt me can say infront of me..
hen coward eh u~
haissss
lei arh talk to ppl useless like u
hmmmmms
i write i soong u jealous die far far
dont block my way to walk
u noe what is hao gou bu dang lu ma?
^^
well this is a word for u
pacheo ppl like u~
live in this earth zuo mo gui?
die suan liao la~
haissss
sha de
u make me feel like u more cheap eh
cham liao
idiot idiot~
u noe that abt all..
i scold dao shuang le^^
my blog u suck off
=)
not urs^^

RAINING DAY!!

2010-01-14T21:36:00.001-08:00

omg~keep raining since the day its over..==not feeling too good..got a bit sore throat~hiuss!i wore jacket and i bring UMBRELLA!see miracle to see i bring right?cz very handy so i bring it!=)hehehe~when i reach school saw gary there slping on my table== that stupid brother~hahaha shhh!~tols him that i get over lerh and i really no more feel for someone le..i put down le..hooo...kinda tiring when u cry every single nite ho?wussshh..then i ate kueh tiaw and curry mee when recess time~scary right?i m not full again eh~gooshh~esmond n gary they all shock ...lols...xi guan jiu hao~=p wakaka today all very guai lorh bring there own umbrella~samreet bro oso follow us when we go out.that is how when only boys u noe in ur class...all at my back become body guard~wakaka..shaaa de~then i wait bus i saw two kids wet all over..very kesian eh~=( they follow the bus i m using too..so i call them come down i cover them..then they oso come down..they walk from the south school to the shop there eh~my god..i advice them bring umbrella next tyme~but then i bring a umbrella that cover one person only!!!but i cover them then i got all wet..T.T AND my bag!=( but nvm larh~atleast they dont keep there without umbrella~=) i slp at bus uh`so tiring i wish quickly get license i drive car go study liao!wakakaka~

RAINING DAY!!

2010-01-14T21:36:00.000-08:00

making myself busy like a bee~

2010-01-13T04:34:00.000-08:00

from upstair u noe what i meant le ho~hmmm tired and very stress..body all bruises..pain...release stress my only way~damn...today was DH4 my dancing group dancing for orentation..my leg couldnt really move well..cz all my body aching..luckily didnt sick~but alll this two day pay off..learning till 5plus..the crowd love us~shouting..kinda fun~but i m really freaking tired ord..i go back home straight sleep..but there more activities await me..cheerleading and basketball training for competition..not sure i wan take basketball ma..i m taking all this is letting myself stop from thinking n keep having fun..but atleast i made it..i slowly put it down lerh for my past tense stories..its felt weird n sad at first..but i keep telling myself be strong so..so anyhow single life fast fast back!=) i will get used to that~i promise^^..its past ord so there nothing left to cherish o anything..thanx for the friends that support me always..hmm...damn tmr will be training for cheeerleading..i m going to stand straight and let them throw like a doll le..huhu T.T...my mouth going cramp anytime now..smile smile smile!=) stand straight!balance when u go up...wossshhh!=o...btw thanx gary for the lifting dance kinda felt like flying that time HAHAHA~well its really fun..

my little cute baby cousin AMBER!=)

2009-12-30T18:25:00.001-08:00

merry christmas everyone!^^

2009-12-24T19:09:00.000-08:00

huhu~hohoho!merry christmas to u all ya!wish u guys always happy!=)
i dreamt santa claus when i slpt after 12am past..on my sofa..hearing the firework sound..realizing a new year almost start..telling myself gonna improve being a great person=) and i dreamt santa claus in my dream..he walk forward to me and hand me a present..i unwrap it..it a empty box..i felt weird at first..he smile..i cnt really look at the face~blurr~he said to me..what inside ur heart really want?..and continue..a year going to pass by..and will begin with a new year..and i want u to put all ur happiness in this box and kept it as a memory and never forget it..and i post this to fb..my fren comment y he so kiamsiap wan?..lol then i say..he is correct this is really what i want..happy..i m being grateful having all the things around me..and i dont dare to complained not having a great life comparing to other who are suffering..and cnt even have this happiness..maybe i m learning a lot...since i moved here..my life change..being a girl who understand and willing to do anything for family n friends..and what i say now..is i will always be there when u guys need me..^^
well..you know..isabel!=D high 5!cheer!=) happy always
may all of us live in a place being a grateful child..
god blessed..=)

happy~

2009-12-06T23:44:00.000-08:00

me singing leona lewis happy~
enjoy~

what bro taught me

2009-11-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

well~that was a night i hvn yet go anywhere..my bro slept in my room but other bed~then we two both have a talk~he told to be a better daughter a better girl~and he said life only once dont let the thing u wanted most pass by u n u regret after that..like our parent~you think they live with us forever?no~they wouldnt..so we must noe how to understand n help them~never made them angry..angry is normal~just like u touch a hot things u will react same like this...so u must train urself..when u r angry..calm dont react fast with ur feeling cz what will happen is u hurting urself n others isnt it?so take a deep breath~think of other options~cz i admit i m not a perfect person or a daughter..cz i never will be..my bro told me life have to two ways to look at it..one is good and other is bad..its our own choice for doing what we want..but the other things is when we scold o say anything abt ppl..first reflect the feeling~what they will feel?so hurt..and bring that feeling to u and feel it..it doesnt taste good..i noe how it feel..so we must look at the trouble we r in~is u who make it small o big..everything is just small case just u must make the best desicion o the bad one..to solve it..and slowly i cried..and say i m think i m useless..i said i m useless..than he saud to me~ur not..u just dunno how ppl feel when u said that to them..and i slowly realize i need to change..not to be angry..cz that wnt change anything..and i wipe of my tears..lastly he told u r pretty..all us in this family say u r wonderful but u must for a better person to be a better girl
dont let the pretty stay outside only..bring it through out urself...cz i m a girl thinking myself not a very pretty girl..cz i dunno y~i just not one i thk..and i never have the confident if i m doing some singing o anything u see i can sing but deep down inside i still hide myself in that shell..i scared...but then my bro told me all this~i start to realize..life is meaningful..cz it only once..that precious one time in a life time..u need to be a great person..a understandable person..to help everyone..that all i m doing..i m myself...i dont need ppl to judge me if i dont do anything wrong..and i wouldnt hurt o say abt ppl~cz i noe one ppl~inside their heart always have something that are precious..and noone has it...=)

2009-11-20T00:17:00.000-08:00

outing pics~=)

today outing uh~^^ took some pics~
teehee~^^

a new morning

2009-11-19T17:47:00.000-08:00

hmmm guess~a new morning huh?
but today morning is quite unique..
i wake up laughing..my god..how how crazy =X
cz i fell down from bed at 8.35am..
and i fell down is slowly fall again..haha~
stupid my blanket oso follow me down..
i look at phone tiredly..
ngaidi i see so early..i throw the phone to bed and i m on the ground..
i look at the high window sun shining in~
so bright~wan to continue sleep~
arghh~
then i get up~fold my blanket..and someone spam me msg!
i look~omg my fren went in hospital..
still jk say i m fine.just let the nyamuk kiss
abuh~lols
==
so i comfort n pei msg le lu..
then i drank water and went out to see the sun and stretch my body..
hiusss..
need to eat breakfast lerh lurh
today my eye ok lerh..
no more zhong..
nganga~=D
haha~
just look at the mirror thinking
yeah..new day lerh uh
then the same parent n my bro told me to go out
i dont want to
then they went out..i m alone~teehee~how nice~a house full of music when i m alone .......ystday night ghost story on tv..make me keep think and cover myself with blanket then fall asleep~
not bad i cn sleep..
i dunno what i dreamt..
i fall down the bed..
u ask pain o not right?..
it not..cz i slow motion..
HAHAHA!like turtle..
=)today i felt i can smile again i thk~
hmmmx
lovely..

2009-11-18T17:46:00.001-08:00

I love you for what you are, but I love you,yet more for what you are going to be.I love you not so much for your realities,as for your ideals.I pray for your desires that they may be great,rather than for your satisfactions,which may be so hazardously little.You are going forward toward something great.I am on the way with you,and therefore I love you.

i cnt sleep..huhu~=(

2009-11-18T06:36:00.000-08:00

well..another night which i cnt sleep...i cnt really sleep for one week plus lerh
huhu~ze zhao de..cnt blame who..xin hen bu shuang..keep boom boom cnt stop..haiss hao xin tong uh~luckily this time i m alone..not with my cousin if not~later they ask me many things again..
thinking back when they came.my aunt n my small naughty cousin(chester)
sha sha de like to kacau me..i treat them like my second family..ad my aunt(janet)is my second mom..she love me like noone~cz she never had daughter only the five boy... suai ge i cn say(==)but a bit zhe lian larh..huhu~chris,clement,ah wee,ah how,chester~tadaaa
that day was a day i cnt breath when they came..and when they reach my place..i welcome them and went out..i still have to keep my smile and greet them..
but i noe i cnt hold it~but i still have too
haiss
it was the day he ignore me..
dunno is o not but who cares..
then i m sad i cnt take it anymore i cnt sleep and i keep crying..my aunt n chester slp with me but on other bed
i cover my self with blanket..i keep on wiping the tears and silently cover my mouth cz i cnt stand anymore..my heart ache like someone grabbing it to controlled it even how i breath..i was like omg..i cnt wake them up..>.<
pls dont cry i tell myself..i cnt stand..i really cnt~i quietly went into the toilet and i saw the mirror
my face was red..freaking red..cz i keep hold my tears.i keep on washing my face..
it so hot..sadly i cry like insane ppl..inside the toilet..
wth...when i thk bk..
then i went to bed again..
i try to sleep
and i stupidly counting sheep..
but when i count to 8..i stop till 26 i stop again..
u think i stupid right?
cz that the day we together..
haisss hard night..
and its 3am my aunt wakes i kept quiet..
she went n help my mum do cake
cz someone books the cake
then left me n chester
and till now i trying to sleep..
suddenly i hear a voice sniffing..crying!!!
then i get up and look at my cousin..who i treat like my own little brother
he crying but closing eye..
make me suddenly cry tears keep flow..
but i was thinking why he cry..i tot he sick!!
then i quickly get the vick..and sleep at his side..
and massage his back i was so damn worry but i dont dare show my face to my aunt telling he crying..then i whisper to him ..mummy doing things awhile jiu back lerh
yao guai oh..then he cool down that when i noe he fall asleep..ohhh finally..then my brain stop..omg turn me crying..siaw de!!...then dunno why i slowly closed my eyes
and sleep lerh..
in the morning my cousin shock is me that sleeping at his side..then i wake i say bendan y u cry last nite arh?
i dunno cz i felt mummy not at my side..
then i cry..
O.O
I WAS LYK!!!
what..i tot u sick scared me!!!!
haisss..
but now i m alone..
see the room like i m locked..
i m scared to sleep
to feel so cold..curve up my body...
and cry every nite..
if i dont it willautomatically at the end of my eye
the tear just wont leave me
but i try my best to be happy..

shocking morning=DD

2009-11-15T17:53:00.000-08:00

i was not well i slept and saw my phone vibrates
i m to tired n tou yun yun,cz my sound oso change niaw~
then i dont care..no energy to pick up the phone n see~
then sleep sleep sleep
i m a bit fine lerh
then i see my phone~
gary msg~
BEL WAKE UP LIAO!!WE GOT INTO THE SAME CLASS!XD!!
i was like 0.0 lying on my bed~then i quickly jump off
then i called him
i say same class what class arh???
i was nervous then he say
we in 4a1!!!
i was wow!!!the class i want!!
i want accounting!!!i wan add math!!!
yeah yeah yeah!!!!
XD
HAO PANG UH!!
i keep smiling dont k if sick liao!!
then i call my mum~
wheeeeee happy uh!!!XD

hot day

2009-11-04T22:53:00.000-08:00

arghh today weather so hot uh~make me keep drink water~plus bored lurh~hearing song lu~hmmm i dunno how i m gonna perform my story to touch everyone heart~i wish my story 100days love game will win ppl heart and understand how it feel~and how am i gonna sing my song~lolss panic~i dunno what to do~i hope it will be not embarrassing uh~=(
hope it will turn out like what i thk of~hmmmx jiayou is all i have to do now lu~
i m gonna paste out my story here soon so hope it will be good~
wish wish~
=D

brunei~my cousin 21st bday~wheeee

2009-10-29T07:33:00.000-07:00

wow~i was lyk happy~very very happy when i saw my uncle n aunt in brunei de they cnt regonize me they say i change alot~wahahas ;p i noe~lolx ppl kip wan upgrade marh~=) i didnt grow pretty larh just taller fatter n more cheerful le eh~=p wheee~happy uh~ i take alot of pics for his bday~love this day~but the party finished i look at the glass window saw the rain drop n the bright sky~=) make me slowly make a smile on my face~i believe we both have a happy life now~even tho my cousin still says smtg~ but i m glad and always hope the best for you well i m happy is u still rmb what i say i m shocked but past liao larh~~hmmmm~brunei de fren i will come bk again de sorry i stay awhile er yi~promise when bk go out with u guys k~let u guys hug dao shuang but not guys and dont too tight jiu hao uh!=D haha~well i dont wanna say more in this part uh~let see picys!=p

first pic in brunei =D

2009-10-29T01:28:00.000-07:00

dunno y i have a weird feeling when i reached here,haiss a bit sad a bit happy~look at the building here remind me so much~tear slip down~=( then i smiled~and wipe away the tears~=') feel like there someone i dont wan to meet will showed up~=( how stupid of me~

if u cant see my cousin clearly this is her pic =p

2009-10-28T18:55:00.000-07:00

out with my cousin~=)

2009-10-28T18:46:00.001-07:00

boring day~

2009-10-26T21:59:00.000-07:00

the weather goes again like my feeling~
y rain~if u dont rain i dont think i will down uh~
stupid de
hehe
but i m ok liao lorh~
lolx
eh eh eh~
dunno what to write ho =S
hehe let see today~
well wake up like blur blur de lo(<< of course who dont wake up blur blur =S)
haha!
then my room was cold like winter times i lazy to wake up then cover myself up~
then i thk of something~
lolx i was laughing suddenly lolx then cover bk myself up~=X so insane~
i dunno why suddenly wanna laugh~
cz i thk of something that are sad but then i turn another way round to think abt it
it become stupid and i laugh at myself~
then goes my mum come pull me out of my bed~
haisss
then i put wide smile at her =D
she say eat wrong medicine arh~
i replies no arh slp wrong side mouth de shape oso follow like that~
wahahas!
siaw de me~
lolx
then i replied msgs like usual~
u noe what
i dont think i got more to write
cz
cz
cz
i slp whole day not doing anything
wow~amazing ho?then so
ntg to WRITE~
hehe!
sot geh~
=p

i belong to me<3

2009-10-21T18:35:00.000-07:00

I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

story of ystaday~finding job day~

2009-10-15T19:09:00.000-07:00

omg is all i have to say~i m so damn tired~walk till like what~with my sis sann finding job~actually we found the job but we are not to happy with their working time so yeah~cancel then ask cancel again doing same thing all over~ lolx~sien arh~then my temper got up i kept quite n keep find vacancy sign but still hold my smile when asking~== then after all this we found it elianto in boulevard third floor i thk~hmm then we fill in every information~hmmm i m quite happy but dunno y a bit angry~oh ya~cz of the boulevard girl?near the mac donald ice cream there de sell drink there de??curly hair face like bu shuang like wan go die de?stupid arh!me n my sis ord stand there wait for her finished with other customer then two guy JUST walk toward her~she go serve them first~walao eh!i was like hold on~i really really bu shuang arh!she blind o what!?y so hiao!see guy then straight go to them!i really want shout u go wrong place to work arh!kns!chickennn arhhh!!!!dun wan go there buy things lerh!stupid asshole no brain moron idiot!!so i cnt control my temper i shouted PUN CHEK!!! when walk past her~like prostitute arh!!!angry angry!!!whole way go home keep think of her arh~!!first time see dao jiang de girl!cheap dao bao arh!!!ur value can let me step on the ground crush diao suan liao!!!seriously man!cheap store!closed down better arh!kns kns kns kns kns!!!!!se zai!!!eeeeyyyyyeerr!!suan liao!!hmmmpf!if we start work at elianto see u again ho!ni se ting lerh!!!wang ba tan chou ci dan!bendan!
after that wen went bk home i was tired then lee came n give thing n i went up play comp awhile then sleep~dunno y mood hen down~sleep xia~seriously i m not thinking anything my tear fall when i seal my eyes~dunno y~hen sha arh!>.but i have some fun while finding job~so quite confusing uh my feeling ystday~
then my bro picked me up then we went to parkson wit his fren they go play pool then i sat on the sofa look at phone~signal down then when i want to tell my bro i wanna go out i stand n turn~yun siang almost bump into me~cz i see phone then i look up~i saw him but funny we act like stranger~lol not i diao ge arh~bu yao wu hui~lolx then i went out alone buy drink~hmmm~then went bk inside the bowling place keep look at phone~haisss~so otw back i smiled at yun siang so he oso~hmmmpf~go back home tired like hell~11pm bath~lihai marh?bath dao 12~lol inside keep fadai let the water splash on my face n thk n thk n thk~feel tired~>.<
then i slpt~
a confusing feeling day~
suck but happy and awkward maybe?
damn~~
ah bel life~
bye guys~=)

avalanche

2009-10-14T18:05:00.000-07:00

since when you come around?
and the temperature changed nothing the same
left me in ystday
you dont see me that way
touch me that way
no more
when you get so cold
i m not sure how much longer i can hold

this is half lyrics
hope u guys like it~
xoxo take carex

2009-10-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

hmmm~after dancing~i feel so relief~my gosh~hmmm tired lolx~breathing so hard make it so interesting for the begin of my dance~haha crazy right?i like how it feel~the way ur brain full of song n energy in dancing~dance off ur worries~it work~but in the end i try to release stress by using this i get bruises~lolx haha~ah bel dont scared pain~i get up dance again~hahax lolx~the weather now is ok uh~hmmm~dunno y i keep thinking abt past~but if i dont thk it will soon come to my blank mind de~so its ok uh~kan kai lerh

when i left my brain blank after dancing smtg strikes in
dunno why~
i felt life is funny~
from what i see from my frens
the ppl surrounding me~
see they want more than what they ord have
how greedy a person can get
when is not urs
some ppl choose to let go
some hold on or just hanging half way still confusing what to choose
when ppl advicing them giving them support~ they still not grateful they have so many ppl there for them
how they make themself fall more deeper n fail every single time
we keep say to ourself wake up from what is true n move on
but when things happen to us do we do the same thing?
we will keep thk n thk till we dunno what to do but keeping ourself in our own space
how a soft heart get hurt from promises from memories from love
then u will realize when u lose something~get bk to urself~ cz we never a failure
we just trying hard to make someone to be happy
but something when we got hurt it become something we dont want to say it became scar~
u will keep rmb how it hurt~
how wish our heart could be stone~cnt feel ntg at all~
well isnt it life very funny~
so rmb always wake up n move on ur days wit happiness
let there be a meaning in ur life~
a story a journey a diary a interesting thing u feel happy when u did it
never say fails~if we do then where sucess?
if u fall~well get up n wash away the tears u have fallen~
there wil be something interesting awaits u~
no matter who u r
no matter how life treat u cruel
we live to be happy~jiayou
rabbit~

FREE at last from exam~=p

2009-10-12T23:13:00.000-07:00

wow~hao suang uh!!!keep shouting after step out of the examination room!!everyone was like O.O cz they took chinese hvnt finished their exam~woottz nvm~syok sendiri oso quite suang de~hahax this tyme i can take my time slowly write blog le uh~
hao happy uh!!!XD cz i m getting bk to dancing~so i m searching song n mixing them~making moves~so i will go to my bro uni studio to learn dancing cz got BIG mirror there let me release everything in my heart that is so damn not nice!!!dance till shake off the worries!!lolx i m bk again!the crazy cheerful isabel!!!=DDD~how i miss my smile~this time i could really damn feel the smile when i made it!
actually wasnt happy when i saw someone but still she's my fren~and i would hurt anyone so i just kept quite~if really the situation have to be like i imagine~then let it be~i dont like forcing~not mine jiu se not mine~i noe sann noe what i m saying~but duh~if really work out better then me~y not i m happy~=) suan liao larh~haha sha de bel bel you keep sot sot think many lerh~
AND more i want thanx lee de cake~n chocolate=)funny when i took them~hahax
thank u uh!!XD
hmmm soon will upload new pics~cz i woll b so damn bored soon~^^
tatax reaDERS~
ah bel~=p

2009-10-09T00:31:00.001-07:00

to those who keep see my blog,sorry i didnt keep on update~but i wrote my story lerh~
to those who wait for it~there it is~but i wan to ask u guys~y so interested abt my story?reaally hen nice meh?its just simple and true~all i have to say~this is how i release some stress~so it wnt hurt so damn much~but u guys noe me so good of cz noe i will laugh no matter what u guys do~i m happy to have u guys~sorry if i ignore some of u~my mood down~but important must noe i m happy to have u guys orh!!to the one who everyday view my blog~hahax hen stupid larh =p

2009-10-08T22:21:00.000-07:00

dunno y~dont ask me why~i cnt tell u ntg what i feel now~i m so confused~the way u treat me before wasnt same like before~dunno y i keep feeling down~keep thinking y u treat me like this?when i am happy and wish to tell u smtg u wasnt listening then when u r happy dunno y i cnt be happy lerh~but honestly say i didnt think that much~is how u treat me when u r in a bad mood~trying to make u smile but u wasnt~i m tired i m really tired~dont ask me y i treat u like stranger in school~becoz what i done for u i keep on getting dissapointment~the way u turn ur back at me the way when u r going u told a fren to tell me ur going is not u~from what i get in relationship i never can stand till this situation but i have really try and understand and keep on forget~i dont wish i will be lyk last tyme the way i face my relationship~ppl say u dunno how to show me that u love me~but what that means?..
on the first day of pmr~
i saw a few couple wher there is a different form was accompany their loves one
and sann look at me i look at each other n smile
all my frens there keep on JIAYOU!~WE CAN DO IT~
so when i was in my exam room i was near the window beside the door at the highest floor of block E and the class at the left~
finished my paper look at the sky~
it was so fine after the big rain
and that the reason why i couldnt sleep
it was pressuring when my pmr is next day
and now the big rain like pressing my feeling
oh my gosh
i hardly breathe
i look at the clock it was 3am
and i still couldnt close my freaking eyes!damn it!
my eye was heavy my brain too and i dunno y~
and there 430 in the morning i waked up and get ready
by the time i woke
i feel so dizzy couldnt really walk properly
holding the wall to support me and sit awhile on the chair to relax my self
my mood was so damn down but i keep on thinking to be happy~
telling myself smileee~~
new day first day of pmr
come on~
but in the end my face was full of worrying
i did quite ok in the exmaination but suprisely i didnt slp
then i walk out with my frens
feeling better to have someone to talk to~
then after my exam
i went lunch with my frens
then i wait for bus
and i slept
lolx my head keep knocking the window
i was like haiyo today really no mood le la
cnt let me slp xia de meh~
ANGRY~PLUS MOOD DOWN
really wan tu xue arh~
found out a day without u~
have become habit that i can live with~

END OF FIRST DAY OF PMR~

sad day

2009-09-30T02:52:00.000-07:00

haisss~~xin tong nurhzzz~what to say~~~how many times wo se wang le?i wasnt able to count~wo zhen xi ni lerh~that day i wait for you wanted to talk to u~i finished school at 9 plus i wait till 12plus jus to see you..telling my fren to wait for me..went to ur class noone there~realize u didnt come~my feeling was super down n worried~went bk home feel sick~went to bath keep cry let it wash away everything~my tears my sad feeling...try to slp but i cnt i keep sweating~i feel so bad~so not well~i cnt feel anything jus curve up my body and feel xin tong and cried~called u twice to ur home noone pick so why shud i call ur hp?u tell me ntg u inform me ntg~i m stupid like a fool~keep want make u happy~but it seem ntg matter le bah~next day went to skol my fren keep tell me a gurl sit ur car~ my heart stop beats~cnt breathe~want to go toilet but suddenly cnt cry cnt do anything...i hit the wall..my palm was so pain y cnt i feel anything?...so maybe u wnt tell me anything u dont wish to see me u dont wan to noe how have i been without u... i turn to my side wasnt u but my frens keep telling me smile..haisss~i cried for u i care for u so much but y do this to me~dont be shocked i treat u this way~i try to make the best dream for u but what happen?i love you so much~but u say i dont trust u~what u do make me trust u?i do my best to understand i did~do u noe what the feeling when noone beside to hold me when i cry that tyme?what i do~does really matters to u?

2009-09-11T00:27:00.000-07:00

today at sann house
so bored
she went to tuition and i m at her home
and i dunno what to do just onlining killing my times
cz in the morning i was freaking no mood n angry
lol
tot ur reaction is going to be happy but u werent
cz i cnt bring a smile for u after all
and i not feeling like eating then i went to drink cold water
omg~i start vomit lerh
aiyo~stomach really hen bu suang
haisss
then i just fa dai through out my school time
then ask my self wake up from what is fact n lies
hmm all i want now is my studies
focusing focusing
jiayou~
hmmm

2009-08-24T01:09:00.000-07:00

cause u are kind to me, we hve fun together. then suddenly fall in love with u.. n u are cute n pretty...~zzzzz~this is how boys purpose~girls beware~lolxxx...style all same~==got better wan o not~>.<~but i m in loved with someone~but i m holding it back to myself~before i could hurt more~lolx...

2009-08-24T00:43:00.000-07:00

heyhey~wow today new day lerh..haha went skol for replacement kh class..lol..XD fun tho~and i just realize when ppl dont tell u anything u just have to stay calm and be urself and dont too believe it will come to u~haha so i did and i have fun~ lol when to imperial mall with sann..then wit her bf n his fren..her bf fren and me talk and soon become frens too..XD funny but good i m not light bulb~hiuuuxx~atleast got a fren pei wo~haha^^sweet lerh see sann n her bf~haha...wish them always together!!XD..and me just playing my role of mylife~and waits for the ones i thk~hmmmzzz wish so~lolx..
oh no i m going tuition later haizzz..i dun wanna go!!~still have to~so i will upload some pics random~hahax..well enjoy..love u guys~take care always~mwahx..xoxo~luv ya

2009-08-23T00:28:00.000-07:00

wow~starting today i just realize i m wrong~hmmss~what should i do~what i said it not important to u~so i think theres ntg for me to tell u o talk to u~haixxx..i tot it was really what i want~i m stupid again~wo hen ben arh~!sha sha sha sha sha sha!!!>.<..alrite then~maybe u dont need me anymore~i never got the chance to feel what u feel anymore~sorry..

2009-08-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

'sigh'wth wit the weather ==i ord feeling moody and angry still the stupid weather make my feeling even more down~i cried in car alone..looking at the sky~then i received msg lazy to reply..i found something missing~then i said to myself nvm..i dont want it all~i dont want..just living simple life is what i want~stupid tears still automatically slip down~then i wipe away before anyone could see..for what i m searching i still hvn~the wan who always care for me even i m ignoring them,who always understand how it feel,who pick me up when i m down,lend a shoulder when i cry,listen to what i want to say,who will follow as how i feel...but i cnt find it.~i m dissapointed..very~then i thk again~then let it be what it shud be~isabel marh happy abit nurhxx...~
write n write tear wanna slip down again~haixxx...cnt hold it sometimes..seriously..~
should i go bk to the normal life i been thru~or change to even better?or just stay the same..
i thk i shud wait see what will happened..but now what i have..is not what i need~so..the ans to me is wait~and keep on growing strong~feeling quite confusing now~haixxx...the pain in the heart is hard to descreibe just make myself even harder to breathe i think..i wished i never wanted the things i wish~it will bring more sadness in my life~arrghh~today is just like i lost my soul..then i fell down~omg~i wish i wouldnt get up and stay crying there~haixx..i still get up quickly~...damn~haixx hope ntg like this strike in my life again~
xin tong de gan jie mei you ren hui dong~

2009-08-12T19:12:00.000-07:00

haixx~morning lerh~studying at home~silent bring concentration~^^hmm~WISH someone accompany me now~i saw in fb saw through everything~then suddenly i thk in my mind~saying do u take it seriously what i say?'sigh'~i dunno what to do so i dont think abt it~and study to cover the pain i had now~for everyone i seem so strong~but i m making myself that way too~alone feel so empty~hope this feeling wnt come again.its suffering~hmmm
now doing ntg but listening song n writting my blog~
it wasnt the same like before anymore~
you talk to others~
i saw the msg
i saw the comment
haixx~tired of it~~
so i ignore everything
dont even care abt it~
cz i still have someone there for me when i need~
STUDY!

2009-08-10T01:08:00.000-07:00

abuhhh~~today i done smtg shudnt be done to look thru smtg~then i break my own heart again~lol i thk i really gave up lerh~>.<...i fed up lerh~no more lerh~i dunwan turn back lerh~
everything is fixed for me now~what i want now is my studies and a person to be with me thru out my problem~haixxx isabel isabel~so dumb de u~almost fall into a world that make u suffer again~wtf~==luckily~'sigh'...so many let u choose~you jiang ben marh ni~abuh~seriously i m so good to be lied de~@#!%~when i saw that~walao eh~wan let everyone noe larh~fine then~but i wnt do the same thing~i keep it to myself~or it just will ruin my reputation~soooo arghhh~nvm~now i m not feeling sad or angry~cz i done with it~no more feeling cnt disturb me this time~cz i m fully dead lerh!for what u been thru~
WO ISABEL ZUO DAO LERH!

2009-08-08T20:30:00.000-07:00

owh~~have a nice day ystday i went to the mall~ntg change but smtg is nt right there is so few ppl there~and i saw form 4 sas student there looking at me~lol i didnt say hi cz i dunno them wah~abuh~~lol then i saw insena ppl some big size guy wearing girl sexy shirt and putting make up on their face~LOL!!LMAO~so damn yucky haha funny tho~XD haha then i keep like shaking my head cz i tot i saw someone so familiar and quite shocking then i look carefully its not~hiu~~scary~lol
haixxxx isabel so ngo arh~~aduh~~
then i receive the msg from him~
after everything we r frens~^^its better that way
hmm~today going bk miri lerh~must study lerh!!haissss stress lerh~
my phone no batt eh~c2pig de!~'sigh'while in brunei i took some pics~hehe
having fun~
that all~tata~
MWAHX~^^

2009-07-04T18:40:00.000-07:00

afta tat night you told me that..my whole feeling suddenly woke up in a dream..i found that the position i m in..is lost~...i m founding myself bk~but dont be sad if i made a desicion..cz i know how it will be in the end..like evry relationship..something willl take it bk..cz when u said that u are bringing me a feeling tht r unstable like that could happen...when i tot it wnt..what u taught me i learn..that why if that happen u wnt see me cry...u never will..n u never can...that is when u will noe i m nt dere~dun be surprised u woke up finding me gone from ur life...

2009-07-02T03:59:00.000-07:00

hmmmm~~today ne~not bad na~ok ok larh..hehe~feeling quite tired lurh~then everyone panic doing project...ahhhh!!!all is that teacher fault lorh..lost their project..stupid kacheng jio me everytime..siaw kia orh~haha~~go sit on my place dun see my salad bag there..go sit...aiyo~...become like someone vomit de liao~eyyyyeerrr...want to eat oso cnt lerh~gekdao~
then jus msging playing games lurh~^^misss someone nurh~my baby zhu~~^^

2009-06-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

lol when i say online wanna chat with u..i wait..then i chat wit u..waiting quite long for u to reply..dun find u,find u oso got wrong..suan le..i got ntg to say oso~knew this would happen..let it be then~wo xin suan le..hmm~~dont wan to fan abt this le...haiisss...until heart oso not nice ki..
hmm....well i cn understand u nid to work..only at nite i could reli talk to u..but u seem like no tyme.
guess...what i do is ignore then...hmmm..sienxxx...not feeling nice now

go out see star n breathe awhile..
^^
xin ching hui hao hen duo~
lolx...wo mei se me how jiang le..
jiu dang se wo de chuo
ni ke yi jiao wo stop play game
gen ni chat de
dan se ni jiao wo
enjoy~
then i get what u meant lerh~

2009-06-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

lolx..today was a fun day lurh..playing at wensan house..haha..have lot of fun..so crazy arh us..then we go imperial mall jalan2..well everyone look at us..hmmm...dunno why too~>.<..then we saw a bunch of gurls like walking on de road..wahhhh so sexy eh..hahawennx kip laughing make me laugh too..hen sa orh her~>.<...we two hen ngong de le..xp..and i took a pic on her phone...wakakax..i was so damn funny nerh..xp

well my pics down there..new~^^

2009-06-13T10:03:00.000-07:00

lol..its 1.04AM!..omg dun wana slp..see some pics suddenly angry...sotz wan~sienx..haixxx...if i noe who is she i early dun wan to go that place lerh..hen sa arh wo~sienx de..i noe pass le but still..i dno why i felt this way~wishing to giving everything up~huh~doesnt sound like me huh..well..gosh~
so ehhh i wanna scold that word~haisss~suan lerh..still cnt slp~feeling hungry~i wnt get fat~lol!eyyyyeeerr~fat thin fat thin~what i made of orh...sponge eh?squeeze then release~-_-"
dunno why larh...today i talked to my bro outside ppl house..we talked abt almost everything...relationship n others...telling me not get into so much abt this thing...not bad larh..so long didnt talk to each other like this lerh..quite nice...he cares for me a lot...seriously..so he dun wan me to get hurt...i thk i hav to apologise what i said abt smtg bad..>.<...lol~afta sunday i dun think i could write blog lerh..guess..when i m free..well guys enjoy what i been through for it is my foot step to my journey of life~^^

2009-06-12T04:52:00.000-07:00

aiyo~so funny just now
when i m going to my aunt house
we were ready to go out..
then we saw a hamster of my other aunt who live wit us
run free..
wow~u cn see how fast it run~scary nerh
my mum col me catch but i cnt
i noe last tyme i noe cz i have two for my own
but i forget how to hold nerh!!!omg!!
when i grab i shouted then i push away
my mum shouted too
lol
we panic it run so fast agen..so small agen
cute is cute scary nerh
haiyo~~at last my dad grab dao lerh..
huai orh the white hamster..
run like flying hamster de..
funny tho~ahaha~

2009-06-10T20:02:00.000-07:00

sometime the feeling get bitter n bitter n soon vanished
that how u learn to grab hold a relation when this come
how u would face to learn to keep up the feeling
feeling that you truely love each other n think of each other
how sometime it turn emotional
and feeling become blur n confused
is this feeling expressing you missed that someone a lot?
or you re losing hope for this relationship
far relationship is ntg but to test how much that feeling cn last
and how the relationship will end to
even my true feeling is lost sometimes
not that i m weak
but everyone will feel helpless sometimes
loving each other is something special
where u learn to love and to be loved
i just hope everything go back to normal
just like before
and my feeling will grow like a plant
it never will be cut
if this relationship goes to an end~

2009-06-10T19:53:00.000-07:00

hmmm~~>.<...ystday got ppl gao pai to me~
omg~~siak dao wo nerh
but i did say i say i got bf fren lerh
but then he say when i dun like anyone tell him
hmm~~gekdao lorh
tell him totally waste of time dun believe
nvm lorh
arhhh!!!sot sot de...hmm
hope wnt happened agen
lol
today orh
ntg special bah
cz i ignore someone that chat always
i dunno~maybe i m nt in de mood to talk kua~
^^
ntg much i guess
jus cnt wait going skol to see my awesome frens!!mwahx!!
tata all~tk always~

2009-06-10T00:18:00.000-07:00

LoL...!!GARY!!i dun scared u say worh~hehe..i didnt say name marh..reli lerh say me leng but then dunno the real thing i didnt mix wit her de..lol...i so guai~~blehxx...noone noe i m yu yuan u cnt gek me de~~wahaha~~man man gek lorh if u cn...haha..take care ur gurl gurl orh~^^..
funny de dancer fren~cheh~wo hui cia sii ni de!!!hahah jk jk!!..

2009-06-09T23:09:00.000-07:00

aiyo~today got ppl misunderstood me eh~lol
say me mix wit wrong ppl..he hvn see lerh
sui bian jiang~kuai kuai de nerh~
nt angry but..aiyo gai ma je yang jiang~hmmm
today dunno post what photo so i guess put smtg that funny nerh~teehee~hmm today not bad
not so moody lerh
hehe~
going to tuition later
hmm
sure laugh like what de wit that guy BRYAN
my bro
haiyo funny le him
another is the kuai2 de guy..say thing witout thinking but i thk its cute..see the face sa sa de...hehe~hmm guess ntg to write jus to write that i miss him alot..wish to hug him tight2 de..iotz love zhu~mwahx

2009-06-08T22:11:00.000-07:00

me^^in webcam~
ntg to do i guess just crazy taking pic infront of my comp
having fun n laughing
was going out nerh~
teehee^^
i m just me..the crazy me
no worries bother me
move forward to see the surprise my life bring
happy go lucky~^^

09/06/2009

2009-06-08T22:02:00.000-07:00

suddenly feel down
dunno why
it seem different from who i am
the cheerful n happy me
while getting old seem lyk not fun
cnt think so easy anymore
hmmm~there's something bother me a lot
thinking how is he doing, feeling
its seem tired
listening song n suddenly the flashback
being emotional or there are smtg behind of my feeling?
my life is like the wind around me
it flow pass u and never stop blowing
didnt even realize my time has pass
is this meaningless for me?
i m trying to turn back to me again
love being the crazy me
no stress but looking forward for my life

2009-06-08T21:22:00.000-07:00

LiFe Is oNlY oNe TiME In uR LiFe
So TrEAsuRe It
lIvE iT hAPpIlY
rMb ThErE sUMoNE
wHo AlWayS tHeR fOr U
fEel SpEcIaL aS u Cn HaV fReNS,fAmIlY
tHeY oNlY cOMe One In Ur LiFe
DuN bE SaD
u DeSeRvE tO be HApPY
nEvEr GiVe Up fOr DE tHiNg YoU wAn
LovE n cArE foR oThER
tHaT wiLl FuLfiL Ur LiFE
U wILl fEeL dIfFErENt..^^

2009-06-08T21:18:00.000-07:00

hmmm..today is a very boring n moody day nerh
my sis angry n no mood
me?
moody for sumone special to me...
cnt reli smile
dunno what to do
see him so tired n sick
makes me worry
and i was angry at him
i was sorry...
something jus sudddenly burst..and i scold sumthing that hurt him
i dunno what wrong wit me~
>.<
i feel so helpless sumtime

2009-06-08T21:10:00.000-07:00

hey guys~i m isabel..currently living in miri
studying in smk chung hua mei chong
i m 15yrs old
love to sing dance and well sometime sport
love to smile n laugh and make other feel happy too
sometime crazy~
emotional,sad,cn say sot2 and sa sa de
my face look sa sa sumtyme well
i thk that all abt me
writing blog to hav fun and telling how is my life
^^enjoy nerh~