sad day

haisss~~xin tong nurhzzz~what to say~~~how many times wo se wang le?i wasnt able to count~wo zhen xi ni lerh~that day i wait for you wanted to talk to u~i finished school at 9 plus i wait till 12plus jus to see you..telling my fren to wait for me..went to ur class noone there~realize u didnt come~my feeling was super down n worried~went bk home feel sick~went to bath keep cry let it wash away everything~my tears my sad feeling...try to slp but i cnt i keep sweating~i feel so bad~so not well~i cnt feel anything jus curve up my body and feel xin tong and cried~called u twice to ur home noone pick so why shud i call ur hp?u tell me ntg u inform me ntg~i m stupid like a fool~keep want make u happy~but it seem ntg matter le bah~next day went to skol my fren keep tell me a gurl sit ur car~ my heart stop beats~cnt breathe~want to go toilet but suddenly cnt cry cnt do anything...i hit the wall..my palm was so pain y cnt i feel anything?...so maybe u wnt tell me anything u dont wish to see me u dont wan to noe how have i been without u... i turn to my side wasnt u but my frens keep telling me smile..haisss~i cried for u i care for u so much but y do this to me~dont be shocked i treat u this way~i try to make the best dream for u but what happen?i love you so much~but u say i dont trust u~what u do make me trust u?i do my best to understand i did~do u noe what the feeling when noone beside to hold me when i cry that tyme?what i do~does really matters to u?

today at sann house
so bored
she went to tuition and i m at her home
and i dunno what to do just onlining killing my times
cz in the morning i was freaking no mood n angry
lol
tot ur reaction is going to be happy but u werent
cz i cnt bring a smile for u after all
and i not feeling like eating then i went to drink cold water
omg~i start vomit lerh
aiyo~stomach really hen bu suang
haisss
then i just fa dai through out my school time
then ask my self wake up from what is fact n lies
hmm all i want now is my studies
focusing focusing
jiayou~
hmmm