why i,m getting more dumb,not realizing its getting more and more unreal.

person who keep believing for a change and commitment but getting more n more insecure..first its amazing..cnt even describe those feeling..no wonder there would exist step in relationship.i never believe and keeping my faith..never know it hurt more than what i expected.cnt breathe cnt think of anything..i hate those feeling i m afraid of that feeling..i thought i could keep it..but from the start i knew it was too damn good to last..until i felt it unreal..so i m expecting the same feeling..but i m getting the heart that is weak..i think i need to find back the strong me..the one who hold still her dignity..i m losing myself..i dont care i promise anything if i felt something wrong i will walk away like i always do..i m letting myself hurt anymore..i m not crying n worrying anymore..for you..not worth....and now spending time travelling..i learn i could learn without you..i observe what a girl really deserve..with or without you..its my life!..

my 2011 life

hey guysss~wow its been a long time i didnt upload any stories of mine.hmm what can i say? i have been busy with my upcoming spm~ahhh~i m so damn afraid i could do well~hmmx..hope i will get the result that i wanted~forget abt this~right now i m doing the craziest thing in the world..that is having holiday before my spm start~not just that but i went to somewhere that i seriously cnt focus~ahhh i just have to forget it and take a rest maybe it could help me abt it~who knows~this is a year where i m kinda confused abt my feeling too~so complicated~hmmmx~i m just gonna ignore it~maybe that could help~well i got ntg much to say also~hope i will do what best for me ;)

hey hey guys~i m back~=)
miss me and my story?
well thereisnt much things but this special little happened just occupiy all the space for me being happy that's meeting someone so special in my life
wondering who?
i m not gonna tell
well if that someone looking this
i think you know who u r..
=)
having u in my life in the end december of 2010 really make me realize there;s still someone who make smile again so bright =)
but in this new year 2011
i m gonna accomplish a task
from changing the arrogant isabel to someone who understand and react maturely on the right situation
i m gonna be someone different that will shine out and be the spotlight in everyone eyes
i m gonaa take everything to be success
i know it will take a ling time but i m not afraid of the hard work
cz i will make it thru i m not gonna be the little girl people can look down
especially to some people out there who give me the expression on their face
you know what it really does affect me in my life but this is the only thing which remind to work hard to show you guys what im really made of
i m indenpent and i will always be
the more negative you thought of me will give me the strength to turn you down~!
2011!JIAYOU!=)