brunei~my cousin 21st bday~wheeee

wow~i was lyk happy~very very happy when i saw my uncle n aunt in brunei de they cnt regonize me they say i change alot~wahahas ;p i noe~lolx ppl kip wan upgrade marh~=) i didnt grow pretty larh just taller fatter n more cheerful le eh~=p wheee~happy uh~ i take alot of pics for his bday~love this day~but the party finished i look at the glass window saw the rain drop n the bright sky~=) make me slowly make a smile on my face~i believe we both have a happy life now~even tho my cousin still says smtg~ but i m glad and always hope the best for you well i m happy is u still rmb what i say i m shocked but past liao larh~~hmmmm~brunei de fren i will come bk again de sorry i stay awhile er yi~promise when bk go out with u guys k~let u guys hug dao shuang but not guys and dont too tight jiu hao uh!=D haha~well i dont wanna say more in this part uh~let see picys!=p

first pic in brunei =D

dunno y i have a weird feeling when i reached here,haiss a bit sad a bit happy~look at the building here remind me so much~tear slip down~=( then i smiled~and wipe away the tears~=') feel like there someone i dont wan to meet will showed up~=( how stupid of me~

if u cant see my cousin clearly this is her pic =p

out with my cousin~=)

boring day~

the weather goes again like my feeling~
y rain~if u dont rain i dont think i will down uh~
stupid de
hehe
but i m ok liao lorh~
lolx
eh eh eh~
dunno what to write ho =S
hehe let see today~
well wake up like blur blur de lo(<< of course who dont wake up blur blur =S)
haha!
then my room was cold like winter times i lazy to wake up then cover myself up~
then i thk of something~
lolx i was laughing suddenly lolx then cover bk myself up~=X so insane~
i dunno why suddenly wanna laugh~
cz i thk of something that are sad but then i turn another way round to think abt it
it become stupid and i laugh at myself~
then goes my mum come pull me out of my bed~
haisss
then i put wide smile at her =D
she say eat wrong medicine arh~
i replies no arh slp wrong side mouth de shape oso follow like that~
wahahas!
siaw de me~
lolx
then i replied msgs like usual~
u noe what
i dont think i got more to write
cz
cz
cz
i slp whole day not doing anything
wow~amazing ho?then so
ntg to WRITE~
hehe!
sot geh~
=p

i belong to me<3

I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

story of ystaday~finding job day~

omg is all i have to say~i m so damn tired~walk till like what~with my sis sann finding job~actually we found the job but we are not to happy with their working time so yeah~cancel then ask cancel again doing same thing all over~ lolx~sien arh~then my temper got up i kept quite n keep find vacancy sign but still hold my smile when asking~== then after all this we found it elianto in boulevard third floor i thk~hmm then we fill in every information~hmmm i m quite happy but dunno y a bit angry~oh ya~cz of the boulevard girl?near the mac donald ice cream there de sell drink there de??curly hair face like bu shuang like wan go die de?stupid arh!me n my sis ord stand there wait for her finished with other customer then two guy JUST walk toward her~she go serve them first~walao eh!i was like hold on~i really really bu shuang arh!she blind o what!?y so hiao!see guy then straight go to them!i really want shout u go wrong place to work arh!kns!chickennn arhhh!!!!dun wan go there buy things lerh!stupid asshole no brain moron idiot!!so i cnt control my temper i shouted PUN CHEK!!! when walk past her~like prostitute arh!!!angry angry!!!whole way go home keep think of her arh~!!first time see dao jiang de girl!cheap dao bao arh!!!ur value can let me step on the ground crush diao suan liao!!!seriously man!cheap store!closed down better arh!kns kns kns kns kns!!!!!se zai!!!eeeeyyyyyeerr!!suan liao!!hmmmpf!if we start work at elianto see u again ho!ni se ting lerh!!!wang ba tan chou ci dan!bendan!
after that wen went bk home i was tired then lee came n give thing n i went up play comp awhile then sleep~dunno y mood hen down~sleep xia~seriously i m not thinking anything my tear fall when i seal my eyes~dunno y~hen sha arh!>.but i have some fun while finding job~so quite confusing uh my feeling ystday~
then my bro picked me up then we went to parkson wit his fren they go play pool then i sat on the sofa look at phone~signal down then when i want to tell my bro i wanna go out i stand n turn~yun siang almost bump into me~cz i see phone then i look up~i saw him but funny we act like stranger~lol not i diao ge arh~bu yao wu hui~lolx then i went out alone buy drink~hmmm~then went bk inside the bowling place keep look at phone~haisss~so otw back i smiled at yun siang so he oso~hmmmpf~go back home tired like hell~11pm bath~lihai marh?bath dao 12~lol inside keep fadai let the water splash on my face n thk n thk n thk~feel tired~>.<
then i slpt~
a confusing feeling day~
suck but happy and awkward maybe?
damn~~
ah bel life~
bye guys~=)

avalanche

since when you come around?
and the temperature changed nothing the same
left me in ystday
you dont see me that way
touch me that way
no more
when you get so cold
i m not sure how much longer i can hold

this is half lyrics
hope u guys like it~
xoxo take carex

hmmm~after dancing~i feel so relief~my gosh~hmmm tired lolx~breathing so hard make it so interesting for the begin of my dance~haha crazy right?i like how it feel~the way ur brain full of song n energy in dancing~dance off ur worries~it work~but in the end i try to release stress by using this i get bruises~lolx haha~ah bel dont scared pain~i get up dance again~hahax lolx~the weather now is ok uh~hmmm~dunno y i keep thinking abt past~but if i dont thk it will soon come to my blank mind de~so its ok uh~kan kai lerh


when i left my brain blank after dancing smtg strikes in
dunno why~
i felt life is funny~
from what i see from my frens
the ppl surrounding me~
see they want more than what they ord have
how greedy a person can get
when is not urs
some ppl choose to let go
some hold on or just hanging half way still confusing what to choose
when ppl advicing them giving them support~ they still not grateful they have so many ppl there for them
how they make themself fall more deeper n fail every single time
we keep say to ourself wake up from what is true n move on
but when things happen to us do we do the same thing?
we will keep thk n thk till we dunno what to do but keeping ourself in our own space
how a soft heart get hurt from promises from memories from love
then u will realize when u lose something~get bk to urself~ cz we never a failure
we just trying hard to make someone to be happy
but something when we got hurt it become something we dont want to say it became scar~
u will keep rmb how it hurt~
how wish our heart could be stone~cnt feel ntg at all~
well isnt it life very funny~
so rmb always wake up n move on ur days wit happiness
let there be a meaning in ur life~
a story a journey a diary a interesting thing u feel happy when u did it
never say fails~if we do then where sucess?
if u fall~well get up n wash away the tears u have fallen~
there wil be something interesting awaits u~
no matter who u r
no matter how life treat u cruel
we live to be happy~jiayou
rabbit~

FREE at last from exam~=p

wow~hao suang uh!!!keep shouting after step out of the examination room!!everyone was like O.O cz they took chinese hvnt finished their exam~woottz nvm~syok sendiri oso quite suang de~hahax this tyme i can take my time slowly write blog le uh~
hao happy uh!!!XD cz i m getting bk to dancing~so i m searching song n mixing them~making moves~so i will go to my bro uni studio to learn dancing cz got BIG mirror there let me release everything in my heart that is so damn not nice!!!dance till shake off the worries!!lolx i m bk again!the crazy cheerful isabel!!!=DDD~how i miss my smile~this time i could really damn feel the smile when i made it!
actually wasnt happy when i saw someone but still she's my fren~and i would hurt anyone so i just kept quite~if really the situation have to be like i imagine~then let it be~i dont like forcing~not mine jiu se not mine~i noe sann noe what i m saying~but duh~if really work out better then me~y not i m happy~=) suan liao larh~haha sha de bel bel you keep sot sot think many lerh~
AND more i want thanx lee de cake~n chocolate=)funny when i took them~hahax
thank u uh!!XD
hmmm soon will upload new pics~cz i woll b so damn bored soon~^^
tatax reaDERS~
ah bel~=p

to those who keep see my blog,sorry i didnt keep on update~but i wrote my story lerh~
to those who wait for it~there it is~but i wan to ask u guys~y so interested abt my story?reaally hen nice meh?its just simple and true~all i have to say~this is how i release some stress~so it wnt hurt so damn much~but u guys noe me so good of cz noe i will laugh no matter what u guys do~i m happy to have u guys~sorry if i ignore some of u~my mood down~but important must noe i m happy to have u guys orh!!to the one who everyday view my blog~hahax hen stupid larh =p

dunno y~dont ask me why~i cnt tell u ntg what i feel now~i m so confused~the way u treat me before wasnt same like before~dunno y i keep feeling down~keep thinking y u treat me like this?when i am happy and wish to tell u smtg u wasnt listening then when u r happy dunno y i cnt be happy lerh~but honestly say i didnt think that much~is how u treat me when u r in a bad mood~trying to make u smile but u wasnt~i m tired i m really tired~dont ask me y i treat u like stranger in school~becoz what i done for u i keep on getting dissapointment~the way u turn ur back at me the way when u r going u told a fren to tell me ur going is not u~from what i get in relationship i never can stand till this situation but i have really try and understand and keep on forget~i dont wish i will be lyk last tyme the way i face my relationship~ppl say u dunno how to show me that u love me~but what that means?..
on the first day of pmr~
i saw a few couple wher there is a different form was accompany their loves one
and sann look at me i look at each other n smile
all my frens there keep on JIAYOU!~WE CAN DO IT~
so when i was in my exam room i was near the window beside the door at the highest floor of block E and the class at the left~
finished my paper look at the sky~
it was so fine after the big rain
and that the reason why i couldnt sleep
it was pressuring when my pmr is next day
and now the big rain like pressing my feeling
oh my gosh
i hardly breathe
i look at the clock it was 3am
and i still couldnt close my freaking eyes!damn it!
my eye was heavy my brain too and i dunno y~
and there 430 in the morning i waked up and get ready
by the time i woke
i feel so dizzy couldnt really walk properly
holding the wall to support me and sit awhile on the chair to relax my self
my mood was so damn down but i keep on thinking to be happy~
telling myself smileee~~
new day first day of pmr
come on~
but in the end my face was full of worrying
i did quite ok in the exmaination but suprisely i didnt slp
then i walk out with my frens
feeling better to have someone to talk to~
then after my exam
i went lunch with my frens
then i wait for bus
and i slept
lolx my head keep knocking the window
i was like haiyo today really no mood le la
cnt let me slp xia de meh~
ANGRY~PLUS MOOD DOWN
really wan tu xue arh~
found out a day without u~
have become habit that i can live with~


END OF FIRST DAY OF PMR~