still the same~

the same feeling haunt me back again~
like the same old pain~
when you needed someone to talk to
when you approaching complicated stuff
there's not a thing you can even do~
but just acting strong and make it thru the night alone~
but the heartache can seriously make you cnt breathe at all
wanted to sleep and forget it all like what you can do
maybe this stupid heart is still soft..
never learn the lesson taught
TIAN ZHEN de me..
why will i ready to give it 100%..
when there's always something to stop your life being smooth
Still grabbing the blanket so tightly hardly breathe normally
i dont want to cry cz i know if i do i know i will let it go all..
all the tiredness and sad memory corrupt in one night
have you ever taste this feeling?
back home everyone doing their stuff doesnt even notice your presence at home
everyday i fight for my future or something
a thousand more words i need to choose
i will be alright cz i need to be brave and go over the limit which stop this life of mine to be happy
if i give up i lose to you that's faith~i dont believe there's not a single moment i can be success.
y

what my bro really wan me decide

My bro came back~yeah~how nice it feel when there's someone home i can talk too~but he is going back again and start working at brunei~=( it's upset when you got back late from work looking around your home there's only your pet welcoming you shaking it tail and accompany you thru your night~i wish it was like before me and my parent having fun together.i missed the time we r together in brunei~when i have no doubt living life like a child..but i m still growing up..'sigh'..it was nice that my bro would ask why i m kinda blur when i got home cz i didnt realize he was home till he say tmr bring me out~>.< omg..my mind is blank..then suddenly he ask what wrong with me..i was like..he tell me just say it..i answer i m afraid i will cry very badly if i pour it all out..so i didnt talk much just went to my room and listen to some song..
then he asked me..if in this world there's nothing stop you~what you wanna become..
i told him i wanna study well and get a a good job and live my life..he ask me where is the isabel who wanted to go for entertainment road saying wanted to be famous and everything..i think again..oh the dream i hide long time ago..i 'sigh'..then he told me..if i really wanted something i shouldnt give up and told me next year bring me to brunei and try to chase my dream and his friends will help me on it..but the first thing i need to change was my thought..so i can continue finished all my path..i think and think....maybe it times to achieve what i really want..

Not me~

recently finding myself struggling to be doing what i m doing now~it was ok in the beginning but slowly i found myself in no where..just making myself tired and breathless to be thinking what i m not suppose to..but the more i continue being like this..i m suffocating~i keep telling myself there's nothing you cant pass through just keep remind myself what awaiting in the finish point..but i really have no more energy to fight what keep on stop me and make me feel more bad inside..just like how i have imagined it to be..but it just felt like a glass you hold so high wishing everybody could see it just fall so hard on the floor..wishing to cry so badly but keep on holding it..while doing what i m doing..i keep on holding my faith to make it the best..i have pass through so many experience when i m doing so much but get nothing in the end..so i dont see myself cant pass through this..
Living in 2010 i found myself have changed to someone who doesnt want to trust anyone anymore..
But still acting strong go on like nothing ever hurt me...
it funny how i see myself with tears
but i m trying very hard to smile back like how i suppose to..
by myself..
i need to learn not relying on others
i just wanna be the girl who is truly holding strong for what she have..
friends and family <3
i will just keep what i m feeling a side till i found someone i could really trust with all my heart
when that times come
it time for me to bring a commitment in a relationship
and what ever happen i will hold it to the end..
i dont want to make it like what i have done before..
last but not least i will smile truly with my heart again..
i will be happy =)
i have faith in myself <3

My way~

DON'T you realize everything over~aint i look serious for what i said?
i already forget you~and i have no more feeling for you~
if you keep treating me this way i will feel disgusted by you
my life already pretty fucked up and i thought you will able to makeit better
i was wrong~
I just hope you dont keep coming in my life and ruin everything~
i m happy now~i really am~
i dont need you to make me smile again~
do what you suppose to~not coming here and make me feel like there's a chance again~
cz there's isn't~

shouldn't be me~

shouldn't be active in anything shouldn't have come Miri~
should know i will get hurt
should know i shouldn't believe
should have know dont start this life at all~
felt so hurt no one could see through me with my life
i m tired i really am.. the only wish now is just lay down and everything back to normal
where i can still smile again
Noone can feel what i feel now..
Upset like how i use to be
shoulder to cry on is what i need now
but i m crying on my pillow
i wanted to shout
i just wish my life never contained you all
it's pretty fucked up life i m in
growing is not fun at all
not wishing to hate but it's so unfair!
i m tired already!
can the world let me rest for awhile atleast?!

exam coming~

here we come again~stuff a student hate to face~EXAM!gosh i wsh there's no exam for being a student~but it will be bad too lols~i never been studying like this before so it doesn't feel like me aint it?what to do~the first step to success is to study and strike for the best then to the future life~gotta get my head straight and plan my life now i guess~TIME to be matured!no more childish stuff no more react with emotional thought and move forward like a indepedent WOMAN~wow~sound old..haha i wanna change my life to be better now..i dont care what others have to think abt me because you never know me you will never understand me and my life because i do what right and i m not afraid to confront for it.but there's always mistake and we learned and we experienced so you gotta give ppl breaks and stop insulting them for one small mistake~
Living in my life really have make tough and strong mentally because i kept telling myself there's nothing you CAN'T do~You just need to try and NEVER GIVE UP!when you try there's more benefit than you dont~and NEVER SAY NEVER!
peace out ppl! take care!
^^

what a life~2010..

wow~i really kinda stress out for this year a lot~you cant even count how many times i cried how much i m hurt in this year~very tired of my life~haisss but i still faced up and move forward my life~things between my friends and family barely make me cnt breathe anymore~even studies~i do hope one..only one person could really understand me and care for me~hold me tightly and gave me strength to be strong for everything~but this year is really a hectic year for me~misunderstood and criticize words i have to hear~for ppl point of view of me..i m strong i m independent..but truly i m still weak n need someone listen to me when i m hurt..even a friend..or someone closed to me..but i just have to kept quiet and take everything alone~..going bk my cousin home..put down my bag~noone to talk to..kept on thinking what will happened next..what am i gonna to do..i m really helpless..and i just realize i stand alone for my life..noone really could understand what i m going through..i just have to be happy for the moment i m in..not internally...i tell myself..this is your life..you have to be alone that how everything will be cause i know noone knows better than yourself...but things just dont go well as i want..you can call me stupid stubborn idiot or what so ever..cause i really am~i think for ppl friends everyone alot~but always forget i have a life to live..mind ppl stuff alot just to see them smile n be happy..but after sitting alone..i closed my eyes..where are you now?what are you doing?...are you happy?...i was thinking to revenge on everything how sometimes treat me..but my heart just cnt be that cruel..pathetic!!...i just wish to see ppl who treat me bad suffer more than what i feel..but why i cnt just do it...i have thought of making them feel bad..my mind just strike..this isnt you bel...this is not what you do for your life..i just forget and forgives..i still help i still care no matter what you did..what happened in school last tuesday..the bruises on my body really make me felt stupid...being so emotional and angry never thought of my life just climb up the building and to the roof just to take my things..dont care how ppl thinks..i was too angry to see ppl making fun of my things..i wanna show you i m a girl that is out of your expectation..i m stronger when i m treated this way..so never ever looked down on me..maybe u think its fun..its nice..well i tell you now..i m serious for certain stuff so dont trigger the alarm that within me..cz might burst no matter when..but thinking back..i m just too tired to be thinking so much..i just left it alone...cz i seem to see my life..just me facing everything alone..crying alone..being independent..even when i cry i went to look at the mirror..the tears kept on flowing..my face getting hot..asking is that me...why am i crying instead of smiling like how i used to be..and wipe off the tears and calm myself ..its tough to stand alone..if you know how it felt..barely can breathe..barely can think properly..but i need to stand on the line and be brave n move on..no matter how life crush you...you still will see the sun shine on you..everyday..i still smile but its just for that moment...i seriously wanna scream out loud how the world treating me..keep stressing me up..i ord gave up a lot of what i wanted..what more you want?what more can i stand..i m ord blank thinking how to treat a friend...i m sorry for what i did i know i shouldnt cz i really dont know..i just wish to help..wish to care..wish to see ppl happy..i just will say i dont wanna be bad..i will stay who i am..isabel..the fun..friendly girl you know..not hurting anyone..i will be stronger mentally!;)

i m back~;D i m isabel law yu wen!the girl who let the picture of hers smiling in your memory =)

Wow~what to say i m living life a lot different now~cz the hurt i learnt from the past really have make me afraid to be in one again~the sun still shine for me~the rain still crys for me~the world still turn round and round and i m still smiling brightly~^^ i just cnt stand to be sad all the times~life is simple~just makes the others happy and smile like they never have~well sometimes i do hurt ppl accidentally but i still hope you could understand~you know i m capable being the strong girl^^ i do need shoulder to lend to~cause i m still a soft girl~i do cry for something useful~^^ but i wouldnt cry for ntg tho~i spend a day thinking my life while listening my blog song~it really make me realize i really have done wrong~i m so sorry~well i m gonna be the girl you said she is matured~i will really show and tell u i will think positive now and then`i promised~i m will be happy and go for the right side~i m like other girl who fell for the love things that everyone perfectly wants~teenage life~what a mistake we all do~cause i was given the chance to love but i took it for granted~i get my punishment already~cause now my heart cnt response for anyone~who will make me fall in love again~by then i thought there's no forever but i will believe till the day you come~no matter who u r~;) i can breathe slowly now~from the stress i got~finally i can walk away~^^ so now i know what this really mean~forget someone you ever loved is like remembering someone you never knew~it's hard~
well i m still growing strong~i see my future could be great~so let make it happened~i m happy to have my friends and family who keep cheering me up when i made mistake~^^this is the girl you talking about now!i m gonna success my life!=)you will only see my smile and hear the laughter of me ;D

haisss cn i dont turn 16?

>.< bday coming~usual on my exam!damn it~haisss =( wow cnt believe my 15 years old life have been so happy~=) thank you~i appreciate everything you said n do~i will rmb it~living till now i found myself moving forward with my head held high to keep go on happily with all the support my family gave n of course friends~
i wanna learn to be grateful having everything i ever have~cz i wanna cherish while i have~let see my sweet 16 will turn out how babe!=D hahaha~
EXAM over i m going to work with my friend maybe~promoter~XD lols~
i never work before i m so excited!XD spending time with friends working n talking n having fun~XD lols cnt wait lerh!XD

wooooshhhh~!hip hop time ;D

baby baby baby ohhhhh baby baby noooo~hahaha love the song!=D make me feeling to dance whole day with my feet jumping crossing my leg~well if u dont get what i meant..listen to the song i put in my blog the first song^^...its a nice song where u no feel emo but feeling catchy for the beat n lyrics~talking abt love song..well eventho i gave the singer a nickname i guess~that is first love prince that mean singing out the feeling out for the first love u got~check him out~JUSTIN BIEBER~not that i soooo in love with him just he is not bad for someone younger than me~wahaha expressing that i m very old like that~XD..
NEVER FELT SO FREE AND HAPPY THAN BEFORE~
cz i can finally be stress less for a day?
how lovely~
the continuos day will be freaking tiring~
back to normal mode that is BUSY MODE
damn~wonder after march will i be free like a bird~
nahhh dont think so..
cz my aunt is asking me tuition for his son at my house for saturday n sunday
his son miss playing with me n my dog ==
in another way i m a babysitter for a primary 4 kid yeah?
lols
hahaha~
let learn to be a part time teacher then =S
i m guessing it will pretty hectic..and ridiculous?
never know if we never try~
hmmm..i dunno y i m pretty happy everyday this a day~
way damn too happy~
>.<
maybe sot liao...XD
and i m here to advertise my cousin pictures where he took in my old kampung i show some here hope ya like it~
and support him~
he is selling camera^^ very unique camera
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^^
he have amazing camera!do consider to buy!^^you wouldnt be regret!=)
have fun taking pics!
Why do we take photographs? Do we take them for other people to admire our skills? Do we take them as a record, document or as a trophy? Do we create them to advertise to our friends that we are having a beautiful, successful, and enviable life?

We create images for ourselves, we appreciate what is around us and this act helps us to express ourselves. It doesn't really matter if no one gets it as long as it was a meaningful exercise to us. We enjoy the process rather than the outcome. When someone appreciates our photographs, it is indeed rewarding. Someone else understands us, someone else gets it too.

Lomography is about being in the moment, having fun while taking good pictures & capturing it with your favourite Lomographic tool – producing effects like light leaks, vignette framing and deep saturated colours!
that is what he is trying to get to know more abt photography!=)

my dream..my hope..my everything

living for this 16 years really have made me grown to understand people around me..to study everything they thinking..everything they feeling..just by reflecting it bk to me..feeling pain,sad,hurt,happy,confused,anger,love..but when i really gonna live my life to stop care for them but myself..i just cnt be that selfish just doing everything the way i want..being cruel sometime but i still cnt..saying to myself ur heart is soft and u would get hurt easily get cared easily..ppl saying u think to straight u dont know theres something gonna hurt u but u just dont care..cz to u.. life is just being happy..then it make myself thinking or saying something funny n stupid.. getting everyone to laugh..when getting serious or angry theres no sign on my face..cz to everyone i m always the cheerful funny freaky girl that strike your mind doing something incredible..but no anger..eventho i do have angry feeling but it never last long..i cnt hate ppl for long time.. i cnt rmb the pain the hate cz i get tired of it and just let it slip away..but rmb in relationship..ur loves one never angry u..they r only upset..cz they never have the heart to hate or angry u..that what i learn now and understand...love?it doesnt really matter to me anymore..cz its foolish..cz we never need that cz we hvnt learn to love..why theres sadness when u broke up..the only reason is lonely..being alone is scary..but when u learn to get out from that..that is the time u have grown..u learned being strong not by relying on others..but i will never stop at the time to care..i will always care..that what i need to do i guess for now =)..

yesh!i did it!=)

hard hard week for me!!!i have so much to stress!my test!my dance routine!my band singing!my group singing!my cheerleading!...awh!!! but i know i can do it!i have the strong determination to knock down everything which block my way to aim the best!=)..by every support ppl gave me!i will make it!THINK POSITIVE!=)..
this few day i went to the place which caught my memories..but then i suddenly smile..and look at the place around..i realize theres ntg to think o cherish anymore..cz i cnt feel anything anymore..and i m glad..cz i m not suffering anymore..
one more shocking thing..someone in brunei is keeping contact with me and is the one who keep miss call me m=S sorry for the words i say before =p hoep ya dont mind =D.. i m shock~and add me bk in fb..i dont know why i felt weird to see his profile saying everything..maybe thinking too much..haha~
omg!back to my school stuff!
i m super confused for all the thing and everyone around me!
sometime when we are far too good and we get the fault by ourself!what a pathetic feeling!
not to forget my sejarah teacher!bhalvinder!lols!i dunno whether i can write out the essay or not!=S...
my math!?dont need to say..omg...dunnno how...
evrything come together make me bz..good thing is i dont have to think those useless thing!lovely aint it?...
hope i can to my best
caring my fren n someone
my studies
my school concert
my family
felt like i have so much emotion when facing this
but luckily i didnt go crazy but keep ugrading to be the one that is who i am
just me~i dont fall but i keep getting better!=)
just give me time and opportunities
i will make it to the best!=)
love ya!=)

memory land~

teehee..this is the pics taken at parkson with my beloved beautiful cousins~!..we have fun..but we took this pic very fast cz i need to head bk home early...going to my other cousin bf house open house..huhu..was a tiring day and quite fed up day maybe..hahaha well enjoy!

=(

omg omg omg...what should i do once i step in this..i m really a pathetic!!!!!i just dont wanna care anymore le..you want to do what just do..i really OMG....damn damn..lets be in a relationship that is invisible which i will making it to be!so i wouldnt be hurt maybe?...friends friends all i need is friends!!!!i m no one properties..
seriously i go knock down the wall enough..==....
and stop miss call me..u eng dao ntg to do de person!once i get angry i spread ur freaking number!TRY ME! and seriously nowadays really happy..sad... angry.... like campur till yao sot liao!pms arh...
well..
lastly i wanted to say is
enjoy life..
trust me..its short..
dont let the chance u want slip off

tataxx~
love
bel..

what life for~

i think i got my answer for whole day wondering the answer...guess it really over..

i m having quite a boring day wondering abt the answer i should gave..told my frens..everyone say dont..no..i was thinking yeah..maybe its really over..what done is done..noone can help..noone can cure..eventho i still have the feeling to feel the memories back then..but i think i should move on to the new one..the one i will be happier..and for the one who told me to think abt it..sorry i dont think so to get it back again..theres no sign that i should..theres nothing to even let me walk toward that life again..so its totally different from what u said..noone want the memories again.i just wanna love the one who care me now and get rid of my past life..
maybe its stupid to tell someone..u know who u r.i can sure u now..noone wants the past life anymore..
hope u understand..

what to do..oshhhh..

is it true?..when the time u put down for the hurt u been through is when u realize u have fallen a bit for someone..=S i m so confused..but i keep holding it back to not fall so easily..woooshh..idiotic me..just waste my time planning my concert and my study..but something just like to pull me away to something...what to do what to do..
i will focus focus focus!!!well that the way isabel do it~hope so...huhux..
time is chasing me..i hope i can do my best in concert rehearsal!HAISSS....
my song..my dance..i just wish some idea strike me immediately..XD
well wish DX street keep on doing the best!BECAUSE WE R THE EXTREME!=) jiayou!

i wish it never happen...never meet you..

to hear u have change to a person i never know make me more confused what kind of person u r..as we all know living in this world is for ourself..some of us did the first step..but the rest just keep falling..as if nothing matter to us..maybe still havnt grow up?..why we have to be like this..all before u said..u fail to do to it..saying i wont care..yeap i dont..cz i dont even wanted to ask why..?..maybe u r noone to me anymore?i think maybe..to the one who always there to care for me maybe he is far far away from me now..but he still care to ask how am i and get how am i doing from my bro..when i said that we never can be together anymore...i think back maybe i really felt sorry to u..but happy to see and hear that u still there to change urself better and listen what i said..and in the future i will be there and greet u as a fren..and say sorry for being childish..when u r asked where the girl u love?.letting u hurt alone..it my fault..relationship that is far really have make me feel something is lost..and i will keep the picture..till i meet u again..if u r seeing this..i hope and wish there's a chance being a friend..=)..i miss the care..thanx 288~=)for teaching to be matured in everything for my life =)

i love the one who lost something but still keep upgrade themself and rmb what is taught..
i learn to love and care and of course help..who need it..
losing u have made me learn..
next tyme i meet someone i love..rmb to say everything that on your mind
always be true..
say what on ur mind and heart
letting u go is something good and bad..
but this will always be past tense i use in my life
my future tense will start when the moment
i closed everything abt u
and something u dunno is..
i believe u..
but then there's nothing to hold it strong..
everything will be fine~

cnt blog too much liao!T.T

huhu~guys sorry cnt upload my blog a lot..cz i m bz for dancing..singing...and studying!haisss..today is sooo sucky!but i m really grateful that my fren respect my choice and understand~XD thank u!!my leg...can split niaw!..i making it softly and lovely!gonna make my dance like that too!=)hehe!jia you jia you DX STREET!THE EXTREME!ntg is impossible!my singing..well say that i use too much emotional feeling in it..happy to say i m using the feeling but sad my heart ache..tears abt to fall...but i still stand strong..cz i dont need anyone when i fall..i need myself..to pull everything thru..that the meaning when we are saying we r not weak...but strong..learn to be independent..eventho i can choose the life having someone beside me..bu i choose not to...but when i fail...i dont let myself down..but continue cheer myself up and do my best..life getting tougher..but it making me to understand life is unfair but change the thinking that it will always be ok..my smile vanished only when i m not in this world..
gonna be strong...gonna be me..
gonna be true..
life?
isnt a hard thing..
just choose the way u want
love
bel<3

whuuu=)

wow~what a day which pass by just like wind~haha..quite boring when one of my bro is not in our class anymore..sad~huhu but i wish him all the best!=)...today i study math i went infront!noob xia de lo~wakaka..then when science..i fadai..keep thinking what should i decide..huhu XD...after morning class end..i went to dance room and check our song and arrange it..uhhhh tired...then we get the permission and went bk to dance room and continue our dance..and later!as i promise my friend to teach the dance for a group of singer i did it~=D so happy!i surprised when they all say thank u to me..teehee~feel like i m accomplishing something and helping ppl~^^...but also maybe today wasnt a day for me i guess...someone who dig out my past is super duper ishhhh!i can now tell u...how u much u say o do..i will not feel anything anymore...cz i m offcially over it!!i m not blind and i m not stupid...jus maybe i m not matured to think abt the consequences~yeah silly me~
well that all for the day!
take care my frenx!
and joyce stay happy!
anything i will be at ur side!
=)
that what fren do!

friendship

i finally find out what friendship really is..
when someone always ther support u
always there to say u still got us
that is when i even realize how hard the pressure is on me
how much stress and pain inside me
is all gone..and they gave u a strong will to move on
and be happy~
that is when i realize
there someone true..
that is ur true friend..
they dont leave u when sad
they dont use u
they dont hide things behind u but tell u..when u r wrong..
and u willing to listen and change to become a better person
i m touched when i find problem..and i get fed up
THEY are de one who held ur hand and get up..
but i dont cry for the problem..i cry how lucky am i to have them
how grateful i found them
how precious every word they give u
how helpful they can be
friend are the ppl u walk with when u are out to the society
every step they guide u..
i dunno how to thank them.
but what i know..
it only kill me to hurt them..
cz i dont only treat them as friend..but family which we rely on
i wanted to say this to all my fren
u the best thing i found in my life
u give me courage to pass thru my problem and sadness
that is y..
sometime we failed but we smile again..and look forward and we learn..
friends never gave u up..
never...=)

WHEEE i get to go out!XD

i have fun celebrating farewell for justin n happy bday for esmond!haha...
nice XD so funny again~huhu we take a lot of pics!and with of course justin cousin..named angie!haha~pretty girl!XD we went to pizza hut and eat...i m freaking full..eating one piece of pizza and one unfinished chicken wing and two big freaking cake which someone gave me...wan to puke out liao!hiusssh!=( and we make the cake so cute!XD LOLS...and i meet a new fren call bryan chin from riam~i so diam when go there..then they make talk liao!well i do take some of MY pics..haha dont say so much i show u!=)lee kim sam!got put liao..haha~dont complaint..XD

simple day~

when today morning i was on the way to school...i saw something..that make my heart stop beating..haisss...y my memory flash back...is it true this only stop when u found someone true for u?why so suffering de!haiyo...still larh trying my best to smile n be happy! today someone bday lurh..next to my class de...my fren n theirs help celebrate..xia soi him at canteen..haha!fun~see everyone so happy...everyone in canteen cheer for that bday boy..wakaka...and gave him a card full of wishes and hopes..^^ i wrote too =)..then i went up..bought cup mee so i can eat in class..because i got chinese lesson and i dont have any of that..so i eat half way..someone send up a piece a cake that i say save for me worh..i tot no more liao..haha..so happy...chocolate cake!make me hyper liao!XD...sometime
i really very confused some kind off ppl...dunno what they want from me..
i noe they backstab me but y still want be fren of mine..=S
weird..and care even i did o not to greet them...funny...and i heard all my frens tell me what u bkstab abt it before..y u can act like ntg..when i dig it all out..pls dont be speechless...
take carex..
love ya!=)

omg what a day!~

today like i separate my body so damn tired man!huhuT.T i think need put down for the basketball le la~wakao~then run to hall learn cheer leading...so tired eh~i got injury le..my hand~damn i put plaster then continue training lerh~=D fun narh~
i think i have slowly get use to this life~
XD
finally~
i getting something from being strong!
hope it work well till i found something that true
anything i just wish there someone true..
LORD guide my way to a better life~
love ya guys!=)u see this pic...that is how no game no pain..got game jiu se jiang lorh!

ehhhh~today ooo~

hiushhhh!today orh...eh...dont say la keep as secret!wakakaka...something special happened...!XD AND I HAVE FUN LA...and kinda sad to see joyce sad today...she write a short letter to me and say she very sad n no mood...then chinese lesson start..i went to sit with her and comfort her..when i say dont think abt it le..she started crying..cz that guy with him de really is jerk!kns!see him slap him!=( no use!haisss...so sorry for her...then i told her be strong..not fair u sad he is not..and with other girl so happy..dont look down on herself..i know its hard...even tho still like how i am now..keep try and try dont give up!and sure..u will put down and see someone really special for ur life..she keep cry make me wanted to cry too..jacky keep turn his head to see my eyes..they jio me!huhu T.T its sad la come on..
haisss....but JOYCE!do be happy yeah!enjoy every second of ur day k?when night come i noe u will be afraid like losing everything..but still always be happy o!=) i support u always!active girl always there help u jiayou!i dont left out ppl when they are in need!gambateh neh!
HUHU!...in the last period so geng eh!
i eat keropok...i eat eat eat..gary jio me..
eat so innocent de~
== u this bro ye se hen lihai n steady lo
noe my expression hen funny la!
zzzzz!
wish someone brighten up my life now
hiushhh...as i m trying to brighten up everyone life!!!
stay smiling!!!!XDDDD!
LOVE YA!take care!

wondering and wondering

dunno wan start new journey o staying all by myself ma..hiushhh..i think better to start a new one?...am i ready...?...yes i think so no dont..anei...today ntg to do fadai dao this qu..
well follow what my heart say bah
like everyone say
if that will make me happy..
right?support o not?
sot liao
but i think understand more first na..
right now is like running marathon..
get ready sienx...
take time run!
XD
funny de explanation!XD
to all my true friends!
wish u all good luck!
and always happy!=)
cnt laugh?
just see me laugh u will oso laugh liao!
hahahah!

everyone look like dying..==

walao...today was super hyper de!!cz i ate dao chocolate..!!wakaka..nice eh..SMARTIES!become smart niaw!hahaha~stupid...thnx lean han!..oso very tired na playing THE SO CALL NETBALL when pjk lesson..they all laughing when i try to block someone tall!cz i keep jumping!like....aiya..dont say niaw..kena jio later huhu..then i went to cimb bank..my bro need do something for his thing..and i saw beggar..so many thing n feeling strike me..i think n think.and i ask...why we always compare ppl that are greater than us?why dont compare who are not as lucky as we r?..y we never learn being grateful...so much hatred so much jealousy turning ourself like monster..i m laughing at myself y i need to care abt what some ppl say abt me..they never live my life they never noe..but they always have the right to say something at ur back..so why being soft heart...as we learn helping others no need to show off whateva..its doesnt meant a thing..i try to help anyone in need if i can..but what i get is a bad method they treating u..i ask myself..y feel sorry?..u done ntg wrong..and they never know what really going on ur life..and i realized to put thing easy..so what i care?..i respect but they dont give a damn..
so i do what right..as long it is true for anyone..
so i went to the beggar and left some money in his box and i left..
i say to myself..i m grateful...and i dont want anyone i love end up like that
left out in the dark and lonely side of the world..
its never fair..dont say it stupid..cz what i done i will feel happy abt it
but to those who dislike me..
let me tell u..
when u doing such thing to some ppl o wat
think and feel what situation they r in
dont judge if u never know well..or by hearing something has no proof in ur eyes..
pls treat ppl fairly..
as ppl are never perfect..

what the heck with my life seriously!!

haisss...actually today was my funniest day n happiest day ever!and it turn out suck!=( after hearing all that is like something pierce thru my heart..i never thought it was this hurting!!!why?..normally ppl get scolded o beaten up they cry..why?..i m not like that de!but why i cry..?and guys this is not abt my relatioship..dont misunderstood..haisss....i never cry infront of my friends..cz i wanted to be the girl who always smile n laugh everytime and carries no worries for them..and what i do?i kept put down my head and cry..but i m touch..there frens who comfort me..and half way i m crying i laughed...cz they r seriously funny..i go toilet and washed my face...kinda getting fed up of this life..ppl i love past away..and this...
shit!=@
NO MORE NEXT TYME LIAO!
damn it!

go bowling with my bro~

>
wakaka today i went to parkson n play bowling with my bro..we wore white colour shirt like couple== my gosh..haha!then i was uncomfortable a bit dunno why..everyone was like looking at me..and i look on my shirt got dirty ha..then i walk very very fast..my bro complaint..hahaha!i wore this shirt!i grow fat ma?look look!=) teehee
i dunno i got o not..but i think from this pic like got!XD

i deleted you in everything..done story!

kinda heart broken to see that word u have said..but i wish u say more so i will forget u and wash u away easily just like a blink of an eye..when that time come..even i meet u..i will treat u as a stranger..just pass by like i never knew you..and smile just like what i do to everyone..you are out of my life list..
thought i should even pity u or care abt u?
waste of time
now i dont even give a damn for anything happened to you
my life just begin when this story end
even i learn..
if someone would meant to be with me
he should understand
and care

i m not afraid to say i still care
but now
totally like i never know you
cz
we never meet
that what will my memory say
stranger..
wonder can i even do that
well
this is when i say
this is isabel way
and she never hold back for anything
i m something that is beyond ur expectation
so what u doing now dont stop
what u hurt the most
i can put down more easily
and move on to a perfect match..
=)

huhu~kinda tired day le today~

today saturday still need go school eh..replacing chinese new year holiday..hao kiamsiap worh..haha~eventho chinese new year i celebrate at a secret place..wakaka..today was tired dunno why..i reach skol i go buy LIANG CHA..stupid right?cold still drink liang de thing..wakaka..i bought two one for yun yin..but she went for prefect camp..then today lesson was boring..we all there talk when after form 5 do what..i want to take lawyer.hehe..or hotel management^^ i like wear smart smart de =)..wuisshhh..then i slp in science period after doing all the notes..
then i went for training for cheerleading..wasnt in the mood for training cz kena misunderstood i wear contact lens eh!the two little girl in my cheerleading de keep look at my eye like what..then i say i dont wear..they say got..y will reflect de and shiny de.then i moved my eye fast fast let them see..nah mei you lar!.==" then gary told them i dont wear la.aduh....before that i went to pete deli eat..wakaka eat liao..BERAT le...FUNNY LE...and i have fun..too many activities liao lu..maybe want start band for singing in concert..and i confused choosing song for my solo..
then my bro back le..he saw me dancing..then we walk out..cz my hand wrote a i love u sign...i told him i write de he dont believe..wakaka...he say dont do stupid thing and rub my head..==
my perfect day!
=)

i m sorry~hmm>.<

i hope u can stop treating me too good..because how hard u try i still dont know how to accept..i m sorry..i forget how to love someone ord..i lost hope in there..cz the feeling is painful..so scared to experience it again..till i get my feeling back i hope that is when forever is true for me^^..so i m having a life alone..its lonely but with friends its always colourful^^..so i have always treat u as a very good friend^^
i just end a story of mine..i dont wish to start a new one..=) hope u would understand..cz friendship hold longer than a relationship that is unstable..
understand more..know more abt who i m and who u r..the road we walk will be longer =)
stay friendssss~
=)
to someone u know =)

pls dont so boring pls~

if anything dont like abt me can say infront of me..
hen coward eh u~
haissss
lei arh talk to ppl useless like u
hmmmmms
i write i soong u jealous die far far
dont block my way to walk
u noe what is hao gou bu dang lu ma?
^^
well this is a word for u
pacheo ppl like u~
live in this earth zuo mo gui?
die suan liao la~
haissss
sha de
u make me feel like u more cheap eh
cham liao
idiot idiot~
u noe that abt all..
i scold dao shuang le^^
my blog u suck off
=)
not urs^^

RAINING DAY!!

omg~keep raining since the day its over..==not feeling too good..got a bit sore throat~hiuss!i wore jacket and i bring UMBRELLA!see miracle to see i bring right?cz very handy so i bring it!=)hehehe~when i reach school saw gary there slping on my table== that stupid brother~hahaha shhh!~tols him that i get over lerh and i really no more feel for someone le..i put down le..hooo...kinda tiring when u cry every single nite ho?wussshh..then i ate kueh tiaw and curry mee when recess time~scary right?i m not full again eh~gooshh~esmond n gary they all shock ...lols...xi guan jiu hao~=p wakaka today all very guai lorh bring there own umbrella~samreet bro oso follow us when we go out.that is how when only boys u noe in ur class...all at my back become body guard~wakaka..shaaa de~then i wait bus i saw two kids wet all over..very kesian eh~=( they follow the bus i m using too..so i call them come down i cover them..then they oso come down..they walk from the south school to the shop there eh~my god..i advice them bring umbrella next tyme~but then i bring a umbrella that cover one person only!!!but i cover them then i got all wet..T.T AND my bag!=( but nvm larh~atleast they dont keep there without umbrella~=) i slp at bus uh`so tiring i wish quickly get license i drive car go study liao!wakakaka~

RAINING DAY!!

making myself busy like a bee~

from upstair u noe what i meant le ho~hmmm tired and very stress..body all bruises..pain...release stress my only way~damn...today was DH4 my dancing group dancing for orentation..my leg couldnt really move well..cz all my body aching..luckily didnt sick~but alll this two day pay off..learning till 5plus..the crowd love us~shouting..kinda fun~but i m really freaking tired ord..i go back home straight sleep..but there more activities await me..cheerleading and basketball training for competition..not sure i wan take basketball ma..i m taking all this is letting myself stop from thinking n keep having fun..but atleast i made it..i slowly put it down lerh for my past tense stories..its felt weird n sad at first..but i keep telling myself be strong so..so anyhow single life fast fast back!=) i will get used to that~i promise^^..its past ord so there nothing left to cherish o anything..thanx for the friends that support me always..hmm...damn tmr will be training for cheeerleading..i m going to stand straight and let them throw like a doll le..huhu T.T...my mouth going cramp anytime now..smile smile smile!=) stand straight!balance when u go up...wossshhh!=o...btw thanx gary for the lifting dance kinda felt like flying that time HAHAHA~well its really fun..