what bro taught me

well~that was a night i hvn yet go anywhere..my bro slept in my room but other bed~then we two both have a talk~he told to be a better daughter a better girl~and he said life only once dont let the thing u wanted most pass by u n u regret after that..like our parent~you think they live with us forever?no~they wouldnt..so we must noe how to understand n help them~never made them angry..angry is normal~just like u touch a hot things u will react same like this...so u must train urself..when u r angry..calm dont react fast with ur feeling cz what will happen is u hurting urself n others isnt it?so take a deep breath~think of other options~cz i admit i m not a perfect person or a daughter..cz i never will be..my bro told me life have to two ways to look at it..one is good and other is bad..its our own choice for doing what we want..but the other things is when we scold o say anything abt ppl..first reflect the feeling~what they will feel?so hurt..and bring that feeling to u and feel it..it doesnt taste good..i noe how it feel..so we must look at the trouble we r in~is u who make it small o big..everything is just small case just u must make the best desicion o the bad one..to solve it..and slowly i cried..and say i m think i m useless..i said i m useless..than he saud to me~ur not..u just dunno how ppl feel when u said that to them..and i slowly realize i need to change..not to be angry..cz that wnt change anything..and i wipe of my tears..lastly he told u r pretty..all us in this family say u r wonderful but u must for a better person to be a better girl
dont let the pretty stay outside only..bring it through out urself...cz i m a girl thinking myself not a very pretty girl..cz i dunno y~i just not one i thk..and i never have the confident if i m doing some singing o anything u see i can sing but deep down inside i still hide myself in that shell..i scared...but then my bro told me all this~i start to realize..life is meaningful..cz it only once..that precious one time in a life time..u need to be a great person..a understandable person..to help everyone..that all i m doing..i m myself...i dont need ppl to judge me if i dont do anything wrong..and i wouldnt hurt o say abt ppl~cz i noe one ppl~inside their heart always have something that are precious..and noone has it...=)

outing pics~=)


today outing uh~^^ took some pics~
teehee~^^

a new morning

hmmm guess~a new morning huh?
but today morning is quite unique..
i wake up laughing..my god..how how crazy =X
cz i fell down from bed at 8.35am..
and i fell down is slowly fall again..haha~
stupid my blanket oso follow me down..
i look at phone tiredly..
ngaidi i see so early..i throw the phone to bed and i m on the ground..
i look at the high window sun shining in~
so bright~wan to continue sleep~
arghh~
then i get up~fold my blanket..and someone spam me msg!
i look~omg my fren went in hospital..
still jk say i m fine.just let the nyamuk kiss
abuh~lols
==
so i comfort n pei msg le lu..
then i drank water and went out to see the sun and stretch my body..
hiusss..
need to eat breakfast lerh lurh
today my eye ok lerh..
no more zhong..
nganga~=D
haha~
just look at the mirror thinking
yeah..new day lerh uh
then the same parent n my bro told me to go out
i dont want to
then they went out..i m alone~teehee~how nice~a house full of music when i m alone .......ystday night ghost story on tv..make me keep think and cover myself with blanket then fall asleep~
not bad i cn sleep..
i dunno what i dreamt..
i fall down the bed..
u ask pain o not right?..
it not..cz i slow motion..
HAHAHA!like turtle..
=)today i felt i can smile again i thk~
hmmmx
lovely..

I love you for what you are, but I love you,yet more for what you are going to be.I love you not so much for your realities,as for your ideals.I pray for your desires that they may be great,rather than for your satisfactions,which may be so hazardously little.You are going forward toward something great.I am on the way with you,and therefore I love you.

i cnt sleep..huhu~=(

well..another night which i cnt sleep...i cnt really sleep for one week plus lerh
huhu~ze zhao de..cnt blame who..xin hen bu shuang..keep boom boom cnt stop..haiss hao xin tong uh~luckily this time i m alone..not with my cousin if not~later they ask me many things again..
thinking back when they came.my aunt n my small naughty cousin(chester)
sha sha de like to kacau me..i treat them like my second family..ad my aunt(janet)is my second mom..she love me like noone~cz she never had daughter only the five boy... suai ge i cn say(==)but a bit zhe lian larh..huhu~chris,clement,ah wee,ah how,chester~tadaaa
that day was a day i cnt breath when they came..and when they reach my place..i welcome them and went out..i still have to keep my smile and greet them..
but i noe i cnt hold it~but i still have too
haiss
it was the day he ignore me..
dunno is o not but who cares..
then i m sad i cnt take it anymore i cnt sleep and i keep crying..my aunt n chester slp with me but on other bed
i cover my self with blanket..i keep on wiping the tears and silently cover my mouth cz i cnt stand anymore..my heart ache like someone grabbing it to controlled it even how i breath..i was like omg..i cnt wake them up..>.<
pls dont cry i tell myself..i cnt stand..i really cnt~i quietly went into the toilet and i saw the mirror
my face was red..freaking red..cz i keep hold my tears.i keep on washing my face..
it so hot..sadly i cry like insane ppl..inside the toilet..
wth...when i thk bk..
then i went to bed again..
i try to sleep
and i stupidly counting sheep..
but when i count to 8..i stop till 26 i stop again..
u think i stupid right?
cz that the day we together..
haisss hard night..
and its 3am my aunt wakes i kept quiet..
she went n help my mum do cake
cz someone books the cake
then left me n chester
and till now i trying to sleep..
suddenly i hear a voice sniffing..crying!!!
then i get up and look at my cousin..who i treat like my own little brother
he crying but closing eye..
make me suddenly cry tears keep flow..
but i was thinking why he cry..i tot he sick!!
then i quickly get the vick..and sleep at his side..
and massage his back i was so damn worry but i dont dare show my face to my aunt telling he crying..then i whisper to him ..mummy doing things awhile jiu back lerh
yao guai oh..then he cool down that when i noe he fall asleep..ohhh finally..then my brain stop..omg turn me crying..siaw de!!...then dunno why i slowly closed my eyes
and sleep lerh..
in the morning my cousin shock is me that sleeping at his side..then i wake i say bendan y u cry last nite arh?
i dunno cz i felt mummy not at my side..
then i cry..
O.O
I WAS LYK!!!
what..i tot u sick scared me!!!!
haisss..
but now i m alone..
see the room like i m locked..
i m scared to sleep
to feel so cold..curve up my body...
and cry every nite..
if i dont it willautomatically at the end of my eye
the tear just wont leave me
but i try my best to be happy..

shocking morning=DD

i was not well i slept and saw my phone vibrates
i m to tired n tou yun yun,cz my sound oso change niaw~
then i dont care..no energy to pick up the phone n see~
then sleep sleep sleep
i m a bit fine lerh
then i see my phone~
gary msg~
BEL WAKE UP LIAO!!WE GOT INTO THE SAME CLASS!XD!!
i was like 0.0 lying on my bed~then i quickly jump off
then i called him
i say same class what class arh???
i was nervous then he say
we in 4a1!!!
i was wow!!!the class i want!!
i want accounting!!!i wan add math!!!
yeah yeah yeah!!!!
XD
HAO PANG UH!!
i keep smiling dont k if sick liao!!
then i call my mum~
wheeeeee happy uh!!!XD

hot day

arghh today weather so hot uh~make me keep drink water~plus bored lurh~hearing song lu~hmmm i dunno how i m gonna perform my story to touch everyone heart~i wish my story 100days love game will win ppl heart and understand how it feel~and how am i gonna sing my song~lolss panic~i dunno what to do~i hope it will be not embarrassing uh~=(
hope it will turn out like what i thk of~hmmmx jiayou is all i have to do now lu~
i m gonna paste out my story here soon so hope it will be good~
wish wish~
=D