my little cute baby cousin AMBER!=)

merry christmas everyone!^^

huhu~hohoho!merry christmas to u all ya!wish u guys always happy!=)
i dreamt santa claus when i slpt after 12am past..on my sofa..hearing the firework sound..realizing a new year almost start..telling myself gonna improve being a great person=) and i dreamt santa claus in my dream..he walk forward to me and hand me a present..i unwrap it..it a empty box..i felt weird at first..he smile..i cnt really look at the face~blurr~he said to me..what inside ur heart really want?..and continue..a year going to pass by..and will begin with a new year..and i want u to put all ur happiness in this box and kept it as a memory and never forget it..and i post this to fb..my fren comment y he so kiamsiap wan?..lol then i say..he is correct this is really what i want..happy..i m being grateful having all the things around me..and i dont dare to complained not having a great life comparing to other who are suffering..and cnt even have this happiness..maybe i m learning a lot...since i moved here..my life change..being a girl who understand and willing to do anything for family n friends..and what i say now..is i will always be there when u guys need me..^^
well..you know..isabel!=D high 5!cheer!=) happy always
may all of us live in a place being a grateful child..
god blessed..=)

happy~

me singing leona lewis happy~
enjoy~

what bro taught me

well~that was a night i hvn yet go anywhere..my bro slept in my room but other bed~then we two both have a talk~he told to be a better daughter a better girl~and he said life only once dont let the thing u wanted most pass by u n u regret after that..like our parent~you think they live with us forever?no~they wouldnt..so we must noe how to understand n help them~never made them angry..angry is normal~just like u touch a hot things u will react same like this...so u must train urself..when u r angry..calm dont react fast with ur feeling cz what will happen is u hurting urself n others isnt it?so take a deep breath~think of other options~cz i admit i m not a perfect person or a daughter..cz i never will be..my bro told me life have to two ways to look at it..one is good and other is bad..its our own choice for doing what we want..but the other things is when we scold o say anything abt ppl..first reflect the feeling~what they will feel?so hurt..and bring that feeling to u and feel it..it doesnt taste good..i noe how it feel..so we must look at the trouble we r in~is u who make it small o big..everything is just small case just u must make the best desicion o the bad one..to solve it..and slowly i cried..and say i m think i m useless..i said i m useless..than he saud to me~ur not..u just dunno how ppl feel when u said that to them..and i slowly realize i need to change..not to be angry..cz that wnt change anything..and i wipe of my tears..lastly he told u r pretty..all us in this family say u r wonderful but u must for a better person to be a better girl
dont let the pretty stay outside only..bring it through out urself...cz i m a girl thinking myself not a very pretty girl..cz i dunno y~i just not one i thk..and i never have the confident if i m doing some singing o anything u see i can sing but deep down inside i still hide myself in that shell..i scared...but then my bro told me all this~i start to realize..life is meaningful..cz it only once..that precious one time in a life time..u need to be a great person..a understandable person..to help everyone..that all i m doing..i m myself...i dont need ppl to judge me if i dont do anything wrong..and i wouldnt hurt o say abt ppl~cz i noe one ppl~inside their heart always have something that are precious..and noone has it...=)

outing pics~=)


today outing uh~^^ took some pics~
teehee~^^

a new morning

hmmm guess~a new morning huh?
but today morning is quite unique..
i wake up laughing..my god..how how crazy =X
cz i fell down from bed at 8.35am..
and i fell down is slowly fall again..haha~
stupid my blanket oso follow me down..
i look at phone tiredly..
ngaidi i see so early..i throw the phone to bed and i m on the ground..
i look at the high window sun shining in~
so bright~wan to continue sleep~
arghh~
then i get up~fold my blanket..and someone spam me msg!
i look~omg my fren went in hospital..
still jk say i m fine.just let the nyamuk kiss
abuh~lols
==
so i comfort n pei msg le lu..
then i drank water and went out to see the sun and stretch my body..
hiusss..
need to eat breakfast lerh lurh
today my eye ok lerh..
no more zhong..
nganga~=D
haha~
just look at the mirror thinking
yeah..new day lerh uh
then the same parent n my bro told me to go out
i dont want to
then they went out..i m alone~teehee~how nice~a house full of music when i m alone .......ystday night ghost story on tv..make me keep think and cover myself with blanket then fall asleep~
not bad i cn sleep..
i dunno what i dreamt..
i fall down the bed..
u ask pain o not right?..
it not..cz i slow motion..
HAHAHA!like turtle..
=)today i felt i can smile again i thk~
hmmmx
lovely..

I love you for what you are, but I love you,yet more for what you are going to be.I love you not so much for your realities,as for your ideals.I pray for your desires that they may be great,rather than for your satisfactions,which may be so hazardously little.You are going forward toward something great.I am on the way with you,and therefore I love you.

i cnt sleep..huhu~=(

well..another night which i cnt sleep...i cnt really sleep for one week plus lerh
huhu~ze zhao de..cnt blame who..xin hen bu shuang..keep boom boom cnt stop..haiss hao xin tong uh~luckily this time i m alone..not with my cousin if not~later they ask me many things again..
thinking back when they came.my aunt n my small naughty cousin(chester)
sha sha de like to kacau me..i treat them like my second family..ad my aunt(janet)is my second mom..she love me like noone~cz she never had daughter only the five boy... suai ge i cn say(==)but a bit zhe lian larh..huhu~chris,clement,ah wee,ah how,chester~tadaaa
that day was a day i cnt breath when they came..and when they reach my place..i welcome them and went out..i still have to keep my smile and greet them..
but i noe i cnt hold it~but i still have too
haiss
it was the day he ignore me..
dunno is o not but who cares..
then i m sad i cnt take it anymore i cnt sleep and i keep crying..my aunt n chester slp with me but on other bed
i cover my self with blanket..i keep on wiping the tears and silently cover my mouth cz i cnt stand anymore..my heart ache like someone grabbing it to controlled it even how i breath..i was like omg..i cnt wake them up..>.<
pls dont cry i tell myself..i cnt stand..i really cnt~i quietly went into the toilet and i saw the mirror
my face was red..freaking red..cz i keep hold my tears.i keep on washing my face..
it so hot..sadly i cry like insane ppl..inside the toilet..
wth...when i thk bk..
then i went to bed again..
i try to sleep
and i stupidly counting sheep..
but when i count to 8..i stop till 26 i stop again..
u think i stupid right?
cz that the day we together..
haisss hard night..
and its 3am my aunt wakes i kept quiet..
she went n help my mum do cake
cz someone books the cake
then left me n chester
and till now i trying to sleep..
suddenly i hear a voice sniffing..crying!!!
then i get up and look at my cousin..who i treat like my own little brother
he crying but closing eye..
make me suddenly cry tears keep flow..
but i was thinking why he cry..i tot he sick!!
then i quickly get the vick..and sleep at his side..
and massage his back i was so damn worry but i dont dare show my face to my aunt telling he crying..then i whisper to him ..mummy doing things awhile jiu back lerh
yao guai oh..then he cool down that when i noe he fall asleep..ohhh finally..then my brain stop..omg turn me crying..siaw de!!...then dunno why i slowly closed my eyes
and sleep lerh..
in the morning my cousin shock is me that sleeping at his side..then i wake i say bendan y u cry last nite arh?
i dunno cz i felt mummy not at my side..
then i cry..
O.O
I WAS LYK!!!
what..i tot u sick scared me!!!!
haisss..
but now i m alone..
see the room like i m locked..
i m scared to sleep
to feel so cold..curve up my body...
and cry every nite..
if i dont it willautomatically at the end of my eye
the tear just wont leave me
but i try my best to be happy..

shocking morning=DD

i was not well i slept and saw my phone vibrates
i m to tired n tou yun yun,cz my sound oso change niaw~
then i dont care..no energy to pick up the phone n see~
then sleep sleep sleep
i m a bit fine lerh
then i see my phone~
gary msg~
BEL WAKE UP LIAO!!WE GOT INTO THE SAME CLASS!XD!!
i was like 0.0 lying on my bed~then i quickly jump off
then i called him
i say same class what class arh???
i was nervous then he say
we in 4a1!!!
i was wow!!!the class i want!!
i want accounting!!!i wan add math!!!
yeah yeah yeah!!!!
XD
HAO PANG UH!!
i keep smiling dont k if sick liao!!
then i call my mum~
wheeeeee happy uh!!!XD

hot day

arghh today weather so hot uh~make me keep drink water~plus bored lurh~hearing song lu~hmmm i dunno how i m gonna perform my story to touch everyone heart~i wish my story 100days love game will win ppl heart and understand how it feel~and how am i gonna sing my song~lolss panic~i dunno what to do~i hope it will be not embarrassing uh~=(
hope it will turn out like what i thk of~hmmmx jiayou is all i have to do now lu~
i m gonna paste out my story here soon so hope it will be good~
wish wish~
=D

brunei~my cousin 21st bday~wheeee

wow~i was lyk happy~very very happy when i saw my uncle n aunt in brunei de they cnt regonize me they say i change alot~wahahas ;p i noe~lolx ppl kip wan upgrade marh~=) i didnt grow pretty larh just taller fatter n more cheerful le eh~=p wheee~happy uh~ i take alot of pics for his bday~love this day~but the party finished i look at the glass window saw the rain drop n the bright sky~=) make me slowly make a smile on my face~i believe we both have a happy life now~even tho my cousin still says smtg~ but i m glad and always hope the best for you well i m happy is u still rmb what i say i m shocked but past liao larh~~hmmmm~brunei de fren i will come bk again de sorry i stay awhile er yi~promise when bk go out with u guys k~let u guys hug dao shuang but not guys and dont too tight jiu hao uh!=D haha~well i dont wanna say more in this part uh~let see picys!=p

first pic in brunei =D

dunno y i have a weird feeling when i reached here,haiss a bit sad a bit happy~look at the building here remind me so much~tear slip down~=( then i smiled~and wipe away the tears~=') feel like there someone i dont wan to meet will showed up~=( how stupid of me~

if u cant see my cousin clearly this is her pic =p

out with my cousin~=)

boring day~

the weather goes again like my feeling~
y rain~if u dont rain i dont think i will down uh~
stupid de
hehe
but i m ok liao lorh~
lolx
eh eh eh~
dunno what to write ho =S
hehe let see today~
well wake up like blur blur de lo(<< of course who dont wake up blur blur =S)
haha!
then my room was cold like winter times i lazy to wake up then cover myself up~
then i thk of something~
lolx i was laughing suddenly lolx then cover bk myself up~=X so insane~
i dunno why suddenly wanna laugh~
cz i thk of something that are sad but then i turn another way round to think abt it
it become stupid and i laugh at myself~
then goes my mum come pull me out of my bed~
haisss
then i put wide smile at her =D
she say eat wrong medicine arh~
i replies no arh slp wrong side mouth de shape oso follow like that~
wahahas!
siaw de me~
lolx
then i replied msgs like usual~
u noe what
i dont think i got more to write
cz
cz
cz
i slp whole day not doing anything
wow~amazing ho?then so
ntg to WRITE~
hehe!
sot geh~
=p

i belong to me<3

I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

story of ystaday~finding job day~

omg is all i have to say~i m so damn tired~walk till like what~with my sis sann finding job~actually we found the job but we are not to happy with their working time so yeah~cancel then ask cancel again doing same thing all over~ lolx~sien arh~then my temper got up i kept quite n keep find vacancy sign but still hold my smile when asking~== then after all this we found it elianto in boulevard third floor i thk~hmm then we fill in every information~hmmm i m quite happy but dunno y a bit angry~oh ya~cz of the boulevard girl?near the mac donald ice cream there de sell drink there de??curly hair face like bu shuang like wan go die de?stupid arh!me n my sis ord stand there wait for her finished with other customer then two guy JUST walk toward her~she go serve them first~walao eh!i was like hold on~i really really bu shuang arh!she blind o what!?y so hiao!see guy then straight go to them!i really want shout u go wrong place to work arh!kns!chickennn arhhh!!!!dun wan go there buy things lerh!stupid asshole no brain moron idiot!!so i cnt control my temper i shouted PUN CHEK!!! when walk past her~like prostitute arh!!!angry angry!!!whole way go home keep think of her arh~!!first time see dao jiang de girl!cheap dao bao arh!!!ur value can let me step on the ground crush diao suan liao!!!seriously man!cheap store!closed down better arh!kns kns kns kns kns!!!!!se zai!!!eeeeyyyyyeerr!!suan liao!!hmmmpf!if we start work at elianto see u again ho!ni se ting lerh!!!wang ba tan chou ci dan!bendan!
after that wen went bk home i was tired then lee came n give thing n i went up play comp awhile then sleep~dunno y mood hen down~sleep xia~seriously i m not thinking anything my tear fall when i seal my eyes~dunno y~hen sha arh!>.but i have some fun while finding job~so quite confusing uh my feeling ystday~
then my bro picked me up then we went to parkson wit his fren they go play pool then i sat on the sofa look at phone~signal down then when i want to tell my bro i wanna go out i stand n turn~yun siang almost bump into me~cz i see phone then i look up~i saw him but funny we act like stranger~lol not i diao ge arh~bu yao wu hui~lolx then i went out alone buy drink~hmmm~then went bk inside the bowling place keep look at phone~haisss~so otw back i smiled at yun siang so he oso~hmmmpf~go back home tired like hell~11pm bath~lihai marh?bath dao 12~lol inside keep fadai let the water splash on my face n thk n thk n thk~feel tired~>.<
then i slpt~
a confusing feeling day~
suck but happy and awkward maybe?
damn~~
ah bel life~
bye guys~=)

avalanche

since when you come around?
and the temperature changed nothing the same
left me in ystday
you dont see me that way
touch me that way
no more
when you get so cold
i m not sure how much longer i can hold

this is half lyrics
hope u guys like it~
xoxo take carex

hmmm~after dancing~i feel so relief~my gosh~hmmm tired lolx~breathing so hard make it so interesting for the begin of my dance~haha crazy right?i like how it feel~the way ur brain full of song n energy in dancing~dance off ur worries~it work~but in the end i try to release stress by using this i get bruises~lolx haha~ah bel dont scared pain~i get up dance again~hahax lolx~the weather now is ok uh~hmmm~dunno y i keep thinking abt past~but if i dont thk it will soon come to my blank mind de~so its ok uh~kan kai lerh


when i left my brain blank after dancing smtg strikes in
dunno why~
i felt life is funny~
from what i see from my frens
the ppl surrounding me~
see they want more than what they ord have
how greedy a person can get
when is not urs
some ppl choose to let go
some hold on or just hanging half way still confusing what to choose
when ppl advicing them giving them support~ they still not grateful they have so many ppl there for them
how they make themself fall more deeper n fail every single time
we keep say to ourself wake up from what is true n move on
but when things happen to us do we do the same thing?
we will keep thk n thk till we dunno what to do but keeping ourself in our own space
how a soft heart get hurt from promises from memories from love
then u will realize when u lose something~get bk to urself~ cz we never a failure
we just trying hard to make someone to be happy
but something when we got hurt it become something we dont want to say it became scar~
u will keep rmb how it hurt~
how wish our heart could be stone~cnt feel ntg at all~
well isnt it life very funny~
so rmb always wake up n move on ur days wit happiness
let there be a meaning in ur life~
a story a journey a diary a interesting thing u feel happy when u did it
never say fails~if we do then where sucess?
if u fall~well get up n wash away the tears u have fallen~
there wil be something interesting awaits u~
no matter who u r
no matter how life treat u cruel
we live to be happy~jiayou
rabbit~

FREE at last from exam~=p

wow~hao suang uh!!!keep shouting after step out of the examination room!!everyone was like O.O cz they took chinese hvnt finished their exam~woottz nvm~syok sendiri oso quite suang de~hahax this tyme i can take my time slowly write blog le uh~
hao happy uh!!!XD cz i m getting bk to dancing~so i m searching song n mixing them~making moves~so i will go to my bro uni studio to learn dancing cz got BIG mirror there let me release everything in my heart that is so damn not nice!!!dance till shake off the worries!!lolx i m bk again!the crazy cheerful isabel!!!=DDD~how i miss my smile~this time i could really damn feel the smile when i made it!
actually wasnt happy when i saw someone but still she's my fren~and i would hurt anyone so i just kept quite~if really the situation have to be like i imagine~then let it be~i dont like forcing~not mine jiu se not mine~i noe sann noe what i m saying~but duh~if really work out better then me~y not i m happy~=) suan liao larh~haha sha de bel bel you keep sot sot think many lerh~
AND more i want thanx lee de cake~n chocolate=)funny when i took them~hahax
thank u uh!!XD
hmmm soon will upload new pics~cz i woll b so damn bored soon~^^
tatax reaDERS~
ah bel~=p

to those who keep see my blog,sorry i didnt keep on update~but i wrote my story lerh~
to those who wait for it~there it is~but i wan to ask u guys~y so interested abt my story?reaally hen nice meh?its just simple and true~all i have to say~this is how i release some stress~so it wnt hurt so damn much~but u guys noe me so good of cz noe i will laugh no matter what u guys do~i m happy to have u guys~sorry if i ignore some of u~my mood down~but important must noe i m happy to have u guys orh!!to the one who everyday view my blog~hahax hen stupid larh =p

dunno y~dont ask me why~i cnt tell u ntg what i feel now~i m so confused~the way u treat me before wasnt same like before~dunno y i keep feeling down~keep thinking y u treat me like this?when i am happy and wish to tell u smtg u wasnt listening then when u r happy dunno y i cnt be happy lerh~but honestly say i didnt think that much~is how u treat me when u r in a bad mood~trying to make u smile but u wasnt~i m tired i m really tired~dont ask me y i treat u like stranger in school~becoz what i done for u i keep on getting dissapointment~the way u turn ur back at me the way when u r going u told a fren to tell me ur going is not u~from what i get in relationship i never can stand till this situation but i have really try and understand and keep on forget~i dont wish i will be lyk last tyme the way i face my relationship~ppl say u dunno how to show me that u love me~but what that means?..
on the first day of pmr~
i saw a few couple wher there is a different form was accompany their loves one
and sann look at me i look at each other n smile
all my frens there keep on JIAYOU!~WE CAN DO IT~
so when i was in my exam room i was near the window beside the door at the highest floor of block E and the class at the left~
finished my paper look at the sky~
it was so fine after the big rain
and that the reason why i couldnt sleep
it was pressuring when my pmr is next day
and now the big rain like pressing my feeling
oh my gosh
i hardly breathe
i look at the clock it was 3am
and i still couldnt close my freaking eyes!damn it!
my eye was heavy my brain too and i dunno y~
and there 430 in the morning i waked up and get ready
by the time i woke
i feel so dizzy couldnt really walk properly
holding the wall to support me and sit awhile on the chair to relax my self
my mood was so damn down but i keep on thinking to be happy~
telling myself smileee~~
new day first day of pmr
come on~
but in the end my face was full of worrying
i did quite ok in the exmaination but suprisely i didnt slp
then i walk out with my frens
feeling better to have someone to talk to~
then after my exam
i went lunch with my frens
then i wait for bus
and i slept
lolx my head keep knocking the window
i was like haiyo today really no mood le la
cnt let me slp xia de meh~
ANGRY~PLUS MOOD DOWN
really wan tu xue arh~
found out a day without u~
have become habit that i can live with~


END OF FIRST DAY OF PMR~

sad day

haisss~~xin tong nurhzzz~what to say~~~how many times wo se wang le?i wasnt able to count~wo zhen xi ni lerh~that day i wait for you wanted to talk to u~i finished school at 9 plus i wait till 12plus jus to see you..telling my fren to wait for me..went to ur class noone there~realize u didnt come~my feeling was super down n worried~went bk home feel sick~went to bath keep cry let it wash away everything~my tears my sad feeling...try to slp but i cnt i keep sweating~i feel so bad~so not well~i cnt feel anything jus curve up my body and feel xin tong and cried~called u twice to ur home noone pick so why shud i call ur hp?u tell me ntg u inform me ntg~i m stupid like a fool~keep want make u happy~but it seem ntg matter le bah~next day went to skol my fren keep tell me a gurl sit ur car~ my heart stop beats~cnt breathe~want to go toilet but suddenly cnt cry cnt do anything...i hit the wall..my palm was so pain y cnt i feel anything?...so maybe u wnt tell me anything u dont wish to see me u dont wan to noe how have i been without u... i turn to my side wasnt u but my frens keep telling me smile..haisss~i cried for u i care for u so much but y do this to me~dont be shocked i treat u this way~i try to make the best dream for u but what happen?i love you so much~but u say i dont trust u~what u do make me trust u?i do my best to understand i did~do u noe what the feeling when noone beside to hold me when i cry that tyme?what i do~does really matters to u?

today at sann house
so bored
she went to tuition and i m at her home
and i dunno what to do just onlining killing my times
cz in the morning i was freaking no mood n angry
lol
tot ur reaction is going to be happy but u werent
cz i cnt bring a smile for u after all
and i not feeling like eating then i went to drink cold water
omg~i start vomit lerh
aiyo~stomach really hen bu suang
haisss
then i just fa dai through out my school time
then ask my self wake up from what is fact n lies
hmm all i want now is my studies
focusing focusing
jiayou~
hmmm

cause u are kind to me, we hve fun together. then suddenly fall in love with u.. n u are cute n pretty...~zzzzz~this is how boys purpose~girls beware~lolxxx...style all same~==got better wan o not~>.<~but i m in loved with someone~but i m holding it back to myself~before i could hurt more~lolx...

heyhey~wow today new day lerh..haha went skol for replacement kh class..lol..XD fun tho~and i just realize when ppl dont tell u anything u just have to stay calm and be urself and dont too believe it will come to u~haha so i did and i have fun~ lol when to imperial mall with sann..then wit her bf n his fren..her bf fren and me talk and soon become frens too..XD funny but good i m not light bulb~hiuuuxx~atleast got a fren pei wo~haha^^sweet lerh see sann n her bf~haha...wish them always together!!XD..and me just playing my role of mylife~and waits for the ones i thk~hmmmzzz wish so~lolx..
oh no i m going tuition later haizzz..i dun wanna go!!~still have to~so i will upload some pics random~hahax..well enjoy..love u guys~take care always~mwahx..xoxo~luv ya

wow~starting today i just realize i m wrong~hmmss~what should i do~what i said it not important to u~so i think theres ntg for me to tell u o talk to u~haixxx..i tot it was really what i want~i m stupid again~wo hen ben arh~!sha sha sha sha sha sha!!!>.<..alrite then~maybe u dont need me anymore~i never got the chance to feel what u feel anymore~sorry..

'sigh'wth wit the weather ==i ord feeling moody and angry still the stupid weather make my feeling even more down~i cried in car alone..looking at the sky~then i received msg lazy to reply..i found something missing~then i said to myself nvm..i dont want it all~i dont want..just living simple life is what i want~stupid tears still automatically slip down~then i wipe away before anyone could see..for what i m searching i still hvn~the wan who always care for me even i m ignoring them,who always understand how it feel,who pick me up when i m down,lend a shoulder when i cry,listen to what i want to say,who will follow as how i feel...but i cnt find it.~i m dissapointed..very~then i thk again~then let it be what it shud be~isabel marh happy abit nurhxx...~
write n write tear wanna slip down again~haixxx...cnt hold it sometimes..seriously..~
should i go bk to the normal life i been thru~or change to even better?or just stay the same..
i thk i shud wait see what will happened..but now what i have..is not what i need~so..the ans to me is wait~and keep on growing strong~feeling quite confusing now~haixxx...the pain in the heart is hard to descreibe just make myself even harder to breathe i think..i wished i never wanted the things i wish~it will bring more sadness in my life~arrghh~today is just like i lost my soul..then i fell down~omg~i wish i wouldnt get up and stay crying there~haixx..i still get up quickly~...damn~haixx hope ntg like this strike in my life again~
xin tong de gan jie mei you ren hui dong~

haixx~morning lerh~studying at home~silent bring concentration~^^hmm~WISH someone accompany me now~i saw in fb saw through everything~then suddenly i thk in my mind~saying do u take it seriously what i say?'sigh'~i dunno what to do so i dont think abt it~and study to cover the pain i had now~for everyone i seem so strong~but i m making myself that way too~alone feel so empty~hope this feeling wnt come again.its suffering~hmmm
now doing ntg but listening song n writting my blog~
it wasnt the same like before anymore~
you talk to others~
i saw the msg
i saw the comment
haixx~tired of it~~
so i ignore everything
dont even care abt it~
cz i still have someone there for me when i need~
STUDY!

abuhhh~~today i done smtg shudnt be done to look thru smtg~then i break my own heart again~lol i thk i really gave up lerh~>.<...i fed up lerh~no more lerh~i dunwan turn back lerh~
everything is fixed for me now~what i want now is my studies and a person to be with me thru out my problem~haixxx isabel isabel~so dumb de u~almost fall into a world that make u suffer again~wtf~==luckily~'sigh'...so many let u choose~you jiang ben marh ni~abuh~seriously i m so good to be lied de~@#!%~when i saw that~walao eh~wan let everyone noe larh~fine then~but i wnt do the same thing~i keep it to myself~or it just will ruin my reputation~soooo arghhh~nvm~now i m not feeling sad or angry~cz i done with it~no more feeling cnt disturb me this time~cz i m fully dead lerh!for what u been thru~
WO ISABEL ZUO DAO LERH!

owh~~have a nice day ystday i went to the mall~ntg change but smtg is nt right there is so few ppl there~and i saw form 4 sas student there looking at me~lol i didnt say hi cz i dunno them wah~abuh~~lol then i saw insena ppl some big size guy wearing girl sexy shirt and putting make up on their face~LOL!!LMAO~so damn yucky haha funny tho~XD haha then i keep like shaking my head cz i tot i saw someone so familiar and quite shocking then i look carefully its not~hiu~~scary~lol
haixxxx isabel so ngo arh~~aduh~~
then i receive the msg from him~
after everything we r frens~^^its better that way
hmm~today going bk miri lerh~must study lerh!!haissss stress lerh~
my phone no batt eh~c2pig de!~'sigh'while in brunei i took some pics~hehe
having fun~
that all~tata~
MWAHX~^^

afta tat night you told me that..my whole feeling suddenly woke up in a dream..i found that the position i m in..is lost~...i m founding myself bk~but dont be sad if i made a desicion..cz i know how it will be in the end..like evry relationship..something willl take it bk..cz when u said that u are bringing me a feeling tht r unstable like that could happen...when i tot it wnt..what u taught me i learn..that why if that happen u wnt see me cry...u never will..n u never can...that is when u will noe i m nt dere~dun be surprised u woke up finding me gone from ur life...

hmmmm~~today ne~not bad na~ok ok larh..hehe~feeling quite tired lurh~then everyone panic doing project...ahhhh!!!all is that teacher fault lorh..lost their project..stupid kacheng jio me everytime..siaw kia orh~haha~~go sit on my place dun see my salad bag there..go sit...aiyo~...become like someone vomit de liao~eyyyyeerrr...want to eat oso cnt lerh~gekdao~
then jus msging playing games lurh~^^misss someone nurh~my baby zhu~~^^

lol when i say online wanna chat with u..i wait..then i chat wit u..waiting quite long for u to reply..dun find u,find u oso got wrong..suan le..i got ntg to say oso~knew this would happen..let it be then~wo xin suan le..hmm~~dont wan to fan abt this le...haiisss...until heart oso not nice ki..
hmm....well i cn understand u nid to work..only at nite i could reli talk to u..but u seem like no tyme.
guess...what i do is ignore then...hmmm..sienxxx...not feeling nice now


go out see star n breathe awhile..
^^
xin ching hui hao hen duo~
lolx...wo mei se me how jiang le..
jiu dang se wo de chuo
ni ke yi jiao wo stop play game
gen ni chat de
dan se ni jiao wo
enjoy~
then i get what u meant lerh~

lolx..today was a fun day lurh..playing at wensan house..haha..have lot of fun..so crazy arh us..then we go imperial mall jalan2..well everyone look at us..hmmm...dunno why too~>.<..then we saw a bunch of gurls like walking on de road..wahhhh so sexy eh..hahawennx kip laughing make me laugh too..hen sa orh her~>.<...we two hen ngong de le..xp..and i took a pic on her phone...wakakax..i was so damn funny nerh..xp



well my pics down there..new~^^

lol..its 1.04AM!..omg dun wana slp..see some pics suddenly angry...sotz wan~sienx..haixxx...if i noe who is she i early dun wan to go that place lerh..hen sa arh wo~sienx de..i noe pass le but still..i dno why i felt this way~wishing to giving everything up~huh~doesnt sound like me huh..well..gosh~
so ehhh i wanna scold that word~haisss~suan lerh..still cnt slp~feeling hungry~i wnt get fat~lol!eyyyyeeerr~fat thin fat thin~what i made of orh...sponge eh?squeeze then release~-_-"
dunno why larh...today i talked to my bro outside ppl house..we talked abt almost everything...relationship n others...telling me not get into so much abt this thing...not bad larh..so long didnt talk to each other like this lerh..quite nice...he cares for me a lot...seriously..so he dun wan me to get hurt...i thk i hav to apologise what i said abt smtg bad..>.<...lol~afta sunday i dun think i could write blog lerh..guess..when i m free..well guys enjoy what i been through for it is my foot step to my journey of life~^^

aiyo~so funny just now
when i m going to my aunt house
we were ready to go out..
then we saw a hamster of my other aunt who live wit us
run free..
wow~u cn see how fast it run~scary nerh
my mum col me catch but i cnt
i noe last tyme i noe cz i have two for my own
but i forget how to hold nerh!!!omg!!
when i grab i shouted then i push away
my mum shouted too
lol
we panic it run so fast agen..so small agen
cute is cute scary nerh
haiyo~~at last my dad grab dao lerh..
huai orh the white hamster..
run like flying hamster de..
funny tho~ahaha~

sometime the feeling get bitter n bitter n soon vanished
that how u learn to grab hold a relation when this come
how u would face to learn to keep up the feeling
feeling that you truely love each other n think of each other
how sometime it turn emotional
and feeling become blur n confused
is this feeling expressing you missed that someone a lot?
or you re losing hope for this relationship
far relationship is ntg but to test how much that feeling cn last
and how the relationship will end to
even my true feeling is lost sometimes
not that i m weak
but everyone will feel helpless sometimes
loving each other is something special
where u learn to love and to be loved
i just hope everything go back to normal
just like before
and my feeling will grow like a plant
it never will be cut
if this relationship goes to an end~

hmmm~~>.<...ystday got ppl gao pai to me~
omg~~siak dao wo nerh
but i did say i say i got bf fren lerh
but then he say when i dun like anyone tell him
hmm~~gekdao lorh
tell him totally waste of time dun believe
nvm lorh
arhhh!!!sot sot de...hmm
hope wnt happened agen
lol
today orh
ntg special bah
cz i ignore someone that chat always
i dunno~maybe i m nt in de mood to talk kua~
^^
ntg much i guess
jus cnt wait going skol to see my awesome frens!!mwahx!!
tata all~tk always~

LoL...!!GARY!!i dun scared u say worh~hehe..i didnt say name marh..reli lerh say me leng but then dunno the real thing i didnt mix wit her de..lol...i so guai~~blehxx...noone noe i m yu yuan u cnt gek me de~~wahaha~~man man gek lorh if u cn...haha..take care ur gurl gurl orh~^^..
funny de dancer fren~cheh~wo hui cia sii ni de!!!hahah jk jk!!..

aiyo~today got ppl misunderstood me eh~lol
say me mix wit wrong ppl..he hvn see lerh
sui bian jiang~kuai kuai de nerh~
nt angry but..aiyo gai ma je yang jiang~hmmm
today dunno post what photo so i guess put smtg that funny nerh~teehee~hmm today not bad
not so moody lerh
hehe~
going to tuition later
hmm
sure laugh like what de wit that guy BRYAN
my bro
haiyo funny le him
another is the kuai2 de guy..say thing witout thinking but i thk its cute..see the face sa sa de...hehe~hmm guess ntg to write jus to write that i miss him alot..wish to hug him tight2 de..iotz love zhu~mwahx