shouldn't be me~

shouldn't be active in anything shouldn't have come Miri~
should know i will get hurt
should know i shouldn't believe
should have know dont start this life at all~
felt so hurt no one could see through me with my life
i m tired i really am.. the only wish now is just lay down and everything back to normal
where i can still smile again
Noone can feel what i feel now..
Upset like how i use to be
shoulder to cry on is what i need now
but i m crying on my pillow
i wanted to shout
i just wish my life never contained you all
it's pretty fucked up life i m in
growing is not fun at all
not wishing to hate but it's so unfair!
i m tired already!
can the world let me rest for awhile atleast?!